1.19.2011

Long time no post.

It has been long. Work is a constant bitch.
Life too... What else can we do besides succumbing to it?
pray really hard? I tried.

Well... trying to get adapt to this 'not-so-new' lifestyle has been tough.
Especially when you have a never-ending TO-DO-list.
and I practically sucked at everything, including my worsening relationship with my sister.
I was rude, and the only thing that she sees is that, I'm being rude.

Fyi, I've been avoiding the boyfriend-you're too young-you deserve better drama to happen.
Seems like, mom doesn't really care - dad's worried but being tied up by mom.
Rational thinking, I shouldn't even ask what's going on, since she's not under my jurisdiction.
Mom don't even care, why should I.

Sis's brain became jello with all the lovey dovey stuffs and I'm the villain bitch.
Spending my time worrying about her going out, and get a bad name??
'How can you be so rude?' - is what I get.
Why should I be such an irrational living thing?

Michy is right. I shouldn't turn my back on her, because there might be a day - she do need my help. I was there, all the time. And I will be. And, I'm not rude at her - just the guy that she's seeing, which totally makes sense because HE's got NOTHING to do with me. I practically am RUDE to everybody who's got nothing to do with me.

I was taught, to think the WORST out of every scenario. Which is why dad is a constant pain in the ass. It makes total sense because - I don't know where why how what you are really doing with this dude, whom I do not know. And the worse thing is that, I don't know when will you bring which phone number and will you pick up my call when I dial the number that I'm confused which is which. I'm not my mom, I care - in my way.

There have been numerous rotten examples of teenage problems, esp when you enter college. One tiny wrong step that you've taken - it will be the last thing that labels your status in this age. We are living in a country that is totally different from what we see in the movies - life is tougher than cat-fighting with fellow bitches who stole your boyfriend. People judge, and they judge beyond what they see - they ASSUME.

Go and have fun, but prioritize your life. If you don't love yourself more that everything else, nothing will love you as you deserved to.

And, family.
Re-think your family's position in your life. That is the thing I think lacks in your life.