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A dream not to be forgotten

2011-10-31T03:45:00.001+08:00

Have you ever had a dream, that is so vivid - which made you feel sad when you wake? I had one last night.. It tore my heart into pieces, yet filled with love at the same time.

I have no idea how it started, but i remembered it was during a concert. Of whom shall i not reveal, yet - those who knew me will know who it is. Let us call him - Mr L. So.. In this dream, somehow my alter ego decides that i am of a personality that is 100% in love with Mr L. Yet, i am not brave enough throughout the time to confess or reveal my affection towards him.

Somehow, there was this opportunity during a homecoming/prom concert that, he was the alumni to perform. So, the whole troop of Mr L dashed in with private jet and luxurious coach and a whole team of backstage.

I am definitely going but, what can a sidekick-ish person like me can do besides watching him from a distance? Watching him from a distance is what i'll do. So, i have been anticipating for the day-performance day to come.

Somehow, i was mistaken as a backup dancer ot something... And in my dream-i dance!! I was pushed into the backstage area to get prepared and was shoved to the stage as a dancer. That moment.. Was as thrilling as the moment when u magically stomp into your first highschool crush around the corner by fate.

As the story goes, the show ended and there was this brief discussion backstage with Mr L and the troop. The second magical part occurs - he noticed me. And he said tht, he remembered that i was from the same class as he does. And, we began out chitchatting.

It was so real that, i swear i would have blushed in my real sleeping life when he first talked to me. Asked me about the school, how my life has been doing.. Etc. Yet, the only thing i was concerned about is whether is he single/available. And then he said that... He's single.

This is when i put my self in a tough situation where, i have given myself too much hope upon him-hoping that he'll notice me. My heart has crumpled together like a piece of paper that has love poems written on it - you know you should toss it into a can, yet deep down inside your heart you've been wishing that he'll somehow be the perfect prince in a fairytale having a crush on you too.

Supermarkets, grocery shopping yet hiding from paparazi etc... For a few times in that dream, i've lost track of him while following him and the troops people in the couple of days. I got so worried.. So so so worried that, i think i cried in my real life. It was so real with all the running all over the place, asking everybody i've met on my way whether they have seen Mr L on their way...

Until, the camera rolled on an empty stage, where the show has ended and everybody was packing up leaving town. From this moment, the crumpling in the heart starts. The thought that he's leaving and might not be coming back has drawn tears from my eyes.

I ran all around the place looking for him holding a piece of paper with something drawn on it. I didnt pay much attention until i found Mr.L in a waiting room with his troop loading up stuffs into the coach to continue with their tour.

The crumpling in the heart magnified immensely and, i breathe in some air and tapped on his shoulder.

'I thought you'll stay for a short holiday or an escapade ;)'

'I actually have a tour to be at.'

'Ouh.. So, where is your next station?'

'Ukraine.'

'Wow! Thats far..'

'Mmhm.. Yeahh.'

'It was enjoyable talking to you for the past few days running around in the malls and etc. Esp the chitchatting ;)'

'Me too'

'Well, i was wondering... Can I get your email or cell number so that we could sort of get in touch privately or stg? Ukraine is really far ;-/'

Until this moment, i think my heart skipped a couple of beats waiting for his response...

'You see.. I don't normally give out my personal contacts that easily. Not until i know that particular person thoroughly.. Why dont we just keep it that way?'

I smiled at him, though my heart has crumpled up and bled till its last drop of blood. Waved him goodbye before he step foot into the liner coach.

Mr. L, please stop appearing in my dreams already.

When I read back.

2011-10-25T16:11:00.002+08:00

I figured, it's just a transition that everybody has to go through. Changed my job again. Somehow, I kinda have the feeling that I'm being despised. Anyway, fuck the negativity. Tomorrow is going to be better. And, it did.
Remember how I was bragging how fun it was in the previous workplace? Yeah, I fucked up really really hard, and I do feel that I fucked up. Hm... I thought I was contributing. Nevermind.

Soon before I 'quit' my job, I've landed another one. Doing retail now. Since day 1, I think I rendered 20 3Ds? Fun! But, I dont get to use Vray - It's all fine i guess? Freelance.. I'm here waiting :) Oh yeah, after this set of ..10 3Ds that I'm currently rendering, might have a chance to site manage.

That's worklife.

Last Sunday, we went to visit Wilber's grave. The feelings are less intense as compared previously. And, It's been really really really long since I last blogged - life has been occupying and it helped soothing the loss in me. I love you unquestionably and, hope that you are all fine with His Almighty.

Ouh, and Meg? She's got a hell lotta thing going on with her life. My life just seems to be so barren with I look into hers. Sometimes, I wonder. What will you be if you are still here with us. Anyway, bless her from heaven - that everything will be just fine for her.

After visiting Wilber, its a regular house chore routine - sent our pups to the groomer, carwash and Chatime. Yeah! It's our favourite bubble tea drink :) So addicted. and I mean it.

Mom and Dad are as usual, bickering soon turns into argue and whole lotta screaming into each other's face. Guess that's their way of expressing themselves. The other day, Mom was cheesily asking dad out for a movie. LoL! It made me felt like I was the excessive item (we were having dinner in the living room), so I ran upstairs and sink in my own world.

Oh yeah! Mom and Dad bought an iPad2 for my 22nd birthday :) So, it practically gave me more reason to just hide at home doing whatever it is people do with their iPads. You see, I'm so not getting anywhere near dating Jared Leto because I stay at home all the time. Can you send him over to our house?? LOL

That night, we went to visit our grandparents. Dad's side. They don't look as happy as they used to. It's a family thing. Please send them your blessings so that they can be happy again. After working so hard for their kids and grandkids for decades - they deserve a happier life. God Bless them.

That's family-life.

Recently - I'm all into books, Marc Jacobs, novels, 30seconds to Mars, Jared Leto, Hollywood, Facebook, MyPad, IM+, PPS, Manga, pedicure manicure, working overtime, Adam Levine, KTV sessions and saving for year end? It seems like I have no awareness that my life is pacing into the stage where, it starts to age. And, I really mean AGING! I've never felt such terror for time to pass cruelly that, when you realise - that there's nothing to be done. No prevention, No cure. Nothing.

The Promises we made, were not enough;

The Prayers that we have prayed, were like a joke;

The Secrets that we swore, we'll never know;

The Love we had, the love we had, we had to let it go.

- Hurricane, 30 Seconds to Mars

That's My life.

Isn't it fast?

2011-06-08T21:53:00.003+08:00

I mean time.

Right before I quit my job (ex-job now), remember how I was complaining how 6pm strikes extremely slow? like slower a day than before? I don't know, it seems like if you've got 'your' job, the enthusiasts wont run out that quick. One moment, I was all excited to wake up every morning and go to work - in another , I just hoped that day time is shorter than night time. I hoped more for zanmai sessions than autoCAD. frankly, I hate that feeling.

Anyway, Its over - for about 2 months? and I'm happier than the time that I was confirmed.

Everything seems to be perfect now. Jobs are demanding and I'm now contributing while learning. Experiencing different things, exploring how things work. It sounds that there are better offer still; I'm comfortable with my current state. Maybe somehow, she's just not as bad as what she sounds like. That's in the first place why I joined them.

I remember the day I got so devastated when I rendered my own, very first 3D! It feels so different! And, the thing now is - I actually enjoyed working overtime, and expecting lesser outing. I know, michy is so not going to like this, but we've still got saturdays! dont we? Hey! when's our next session KTV? I've missed out so many movies that I would like to watch.

Every line I draw, every model I built is so satisfying. Lunch is so enjoyable that - we actually talk about food, work, people and giving out constructive comments! We make jokes in the office to ease up the environment - its relaxing, and work at the same time.

ouh.. and I FINALLY got enough money to change my phone? ROTFL. Its so fking embarassing to tell.

Well, a lot has changed - yet it seems to remain the same. Or should I put it this way - as long as I'm happy. Right?

P.s : love you all!! Dad Mom Meg Alice Mich Jasmynn Ying and everyone who went through this change with me.

Long time no post.

2011-01-19T01:16:00.002+08:00

It has been long. Work is a constant bitch.

Life too... What else can we do besides succumbing to it?

pray really hard? I tried.

Well... trying to get adapt to this 'not-so-new' lifestyle has been tough.

Especially when you have a never-ending TO-DO-list.

and I practically sucked at everything, including my worsening relationship with my sister.

I was rude, and the only thing that she sees is that, I'm being rude.

Fyi, I've been avoiding the boyfriend-you're too young-you deserve better drama to happen.

Seems like, mom doesn't really care - dad's worried but being tied up by mom.

Rational thinking, I shouldn't even ask what's going on, since she's not under my jurisdiction.

Mom don't even care, why should I.

Sis's brain became jello with all the lovey dovey stuffs and I'm the villain bitch.

Spending my time worrying about her going out, and get a bad name??

'How can you be so rude?' - is what I get.

Why should I be such an irrational living thing?

Michy is right. I shouldn't turn my back on her, because there might be a day - she do need my help. I was there, all the time. And I will be. And, I'm not rude at her - just the guy that she's seeing, which totally makes sense because HE's got NOTHING to do with me. I practically am RUDE to everybody who's got nothing to do with me.

I was taught, to think the WORST out of every scenario. Which is why dad is a constant pain in the ass. It makes total sense because - I don't know where why how what you are really doing with this dude, whom I do not know. And the worse thing is that, I don't know when will you bring which phone number and will you pick up my call when I dial the number that I'm confused which is which. I'm not my mom, I care - in my way.

There have been numerous rotten examples of teenage problems, esp when you enter college. One tiny wrong step that you've taken - it will be the last thing that labels your status in this age. We are living in a country that is totally different from what we see in the movies - life is tougher than cat-fighting with fellow bitches who stole your boyfriend. People judge, and they judge beyond what they see - they ASSUME.

Go and have fun, but prioritize your life. If you don't love yourself more that everything else, nothing will love you as you deserved to.

And, family.

Re-think your family's position in your life. That is the thing I think lacks in your life.

haunted morning. glam-awesome night.

2010-12-15T23:24:00.003+08:00

yeah..remember how my morning was haunted by the movies lost???

hope that the rest still works... arghhhhhh >

!!!!!TADAAAA!!!!!!

luckily, my adam lambert acoustic live CD 'arrived' safely. :-')

drowning in the hypnotic acoustic version of his.

especially 'Whataya Want From Me.'

a good start of the coming weekend?? =)

happy thursday peeps!!!!

p.s. I'll be humming Mad World & Soaked

in a distorted rhythm, probably for the next couple of years... ahahhahaha

wad went wrong with my stoopid DVD-rom??!!!!!

2010-12-15T09:35:00.002+08:00

i officially lost all my moviesssss >

schindler's list

astraunaut's wife

transformers [not that im a biggg fan]

firewall

benjamin button

slumdog millionaire

AAAHHHH HOWWWW???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exactly

2010-11-25T14:56:00.000+08:00

the thing that i've been trying to ignore.

now..im officially a brat

GLAM NATION TOUR live in Malaysia 2010 ROCKS!!!!

2010-10-15T00:48:00.004+08:00

Fyi,

this is the first concert that I have ever been..

not even a celebrity sighting or what...

and.. it's ADAM LAMBERT!!!

fill you all with more details soon.

all I can say is, I've totally lost myself in the concert.

so, thank you.

quote from the late King of Pop,

YOU ROCK MY WORLD.

please come to Malaysia again.

Tess.

Adam Lambert Glam Nation Tour Live in Malaysia 2010

2010-10-14T15:34:00.009+08:00

PEOPLE!!!

ADAM LAMBERT IS IN TOWN!

and, I've scored 2 tickets from red.fm to the Bukit Jalil GLAM Nation Tour

Live in Malaysia Concert 2010.

and its TONIGHHTTTTTT!!!!!!!!

reasonable thinking...

I ought to bring my BFF, since she has got her tix since even before i started this AL craze...

and my dried up purse is a constant obstacle.

so... im bringing my sis.

even ms.bossy is complaining how i've been spoiling this ungrateful kid.

ANYWAY...

dont let the nutcrack ruin my night

here...is a letter for Adam Lambert...

Dear Adam,

This could be the only time that I will see you as a real live person

instead of music frequencies or 3D image in American Idol.

Even these tickets I have, is like...100 yards away from the stage.

Still, you have the best-est voice and style which

a combination I will never ever imagine anyone in it

[exceptional case for Lady Gaga].

Throw your best on stage and break a leg!!!

All the best and I will see you tonight!

PLEASEEEEE flash more of this look... so that my passes worths even more!

Tess from Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur. ^^

21st post

2010-09-28T00:12:00.004+08:00

not literally the 21st post

frankly, i dont really like the fact that im already 21.

and, somehow i realised that i'm bad with comments.

and bad with people skills too.

sorry if i have offended anyone of you in any manner

under any circumstances

whenever i feel offended or something - i just want to runaway and hide.

and whenever i have offended anyone

i've asked quite a bunch of opinions from friends - dudes and babes.

go get a life.

i dream big - and now im stuck in reality to make my dream come true.

with all these problems and stuff, i was told that im jealous of my sister.

its true in the sense that, i wasn't given the talent to go wild

go wreckless and irresponsible.

the sad thing is, i find it kinda offensive.

my life, who are you to define MY life?

so... being caring is annoying?

being overprotective is shameful?

being worried is embarrassing?

what do i get in return?

bad name and a joke.

and tied by the kiasu spirit - i've being judgemental for my entire life.

now i know why people say breaking free is not easy.

i dont want to end up like normal people - i have bigger dreams.

and i do mean BIG dreams.

when i look into my future plans and dreams; it seems so far.

yet, im already 21 - soon, i'll turn 30, 40, 50.

its not really that far you know? i began to worry.

and right now? i don't even have the courage to make the decision

to take the step to tell my dad i want to buy a new phone.

nope.. its not about the phone.

its about all other future decisions i would have to make.

im too timid to make mistakes - which is really undesirable.

for the birthday wishes - i have realised that i've been making wishes not for myself.

for mom dad grandma sis bro and everybody else.

and i realised this not so long ago after i blew the candle off @ TGIF Gardens.

please give me the courage to be cruel and selfish.

so that i will worry less and get my life

as you are not worthy of my birthday wish.

thank you, for giving me all these wishes.

and i've spent it not-so-wisely for the past 21 years.

love you all.

from tess to

dad mom grandma aunt sis bro

alice sara chenguan levon

michelle jasmyn janet victor fanson joe ezu

moments

2010-07-26T01:33:00.002+08:00

where affection has turned into insult.

how jolly.

i had to.

2010-07-10T01:51:00.005+08:00

Sorry if this doesn't work for peeps who doesn't read chinese.

Plain my fault.

總是覺得寫中文是一件意義重大的事情。

如果不是很嚴重的事情﹐ 會用比較輕鬆的方法表達。

本來以為今晚會開開心心﹐很早睡。皮膚變差了。。可沒人看。沒分別。

今天的心情﹐ 怪怪的。混雜很多很多個語言。。。

一直以為﹐ 我不是一個逃兵。。。

一直以為﹐ 我很理智。。。

一直以為﹐ 我有天賦。。。

一直以為﹐ 我很盡責。。。

此時此刻﹐我想的東西。。。與我無關

此時此刻﹐我想的東西。。。無聊非常

此時此刻﹐我想的東西。。。讓我傷感

此時此刻﹐我想的東西。。。悲鬱催淚

我吗？
我的嗎？
是我的吗？

这一堆

幼稚，无聊，愚蠢，浪费时间

的举动。。

让我觉得

幼稚，无聊，愚蠢，浪费时间

因为，看到的 - 只有我自己

因为，担心的 - 只有我自己

因为，害怕的 - 只有我自己

因为，着急的 - 只有我自己

已经三个多月。。。

我一定是吃饱太闲 - 浪费时间，担心你被骗

我一定是吃饱太闲 - 浪费时间，担心你误下决定
我一定是吃饱太闲 - 浪费时间，担心你学业不达标

我没有权力后悔

因为你对我而言

是无价，天骄，独尊，唯一。

是不是应该当个逃兵，才能止我眼泪？
是不是应该灭去理智，才能去我悲郁？
是不是应该假装文艺，才能发掘天赋？

是不是应该撇去盡責，才能安心入眠？

是不是应该强挤微笑，才能忘却悔意？

失败，没用，黯淡的人生，闷，无名，被唾弃

对我而言，并不具任何杀伤

直到你。

我忘了。忘了你是忘本的。

stay tuned for Dorian Gray

2010-05-30T19:24:00.004+08:00

Not sure whether any of you have realised. When we are supposed to do researches on matters relevant to a topic, for instance; we google, wikipedia, yahoo and etc. Some will even subscribe in pages like dezeen, archdaily for more specific topics in art and design related matters. personally, I like deviantart, for the extensive collection of artworks and creativity. Well, Derailment, is what i would like to discuss today.

everytime after i watch a movie, or listened a song.. I'll go n wikipedia or google the thing that bugs me.. most of the time are actors or actresses who i don't recognise. Oooh, and also movies that Im dying to watch. My sister say that Im a psycho stalker, but thats not the point.

this time.. I was googling about Ghost.. I intended to read movie reviews and etc, instead.. the search literally came out ghostly. I end up reading stuffs about ghost... then The Bible, Doppelganger, Vampires, List of Haunted Houses etc. Fyi, Im a very 'kiasi' person.. but all this just wont stop until I came across this article about Dorian Gray.

Written by Oscar Wilde, which I think he is a little psychotic - the story is kinda interesting though. People have always wanted eternal youth and beauty. At least I want it. Its made into a movie now. People, anticipate it ^^

here's the link to wikipedia ^^

NEVER EVER #01

2010-04-04T22:51:00.002+08:00

a post, dedicated to... whoever who reads.

these are sort of like... spontaneous rules that i hate in people

especially guys. no offense, but my humble existence is not for your exploitation.

we r going to start with rule #01

Drunkard

–noun

a person who is habitually or frequently drunk.

- sourced from http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/drunkard

when people are drunk, especially alcoholics - they tend to have their mind skewed. this is a good thing, for poets and suicidal painters. when they cant think properly... they cant drive, they cant think straight, they cant walk, they cant digest conversations, and they tend to make fool of themselves and the person standing right next to them. sarcasm and idiosyncrasies are the side dish...right after a whole bloody pack of mid-way digested steak and soaked potatoes. unless the person that you have to tolerate is van gogh or mozart... never ever.

p.s: and after the cleaning-up-vomit and insomniac nightmare, he or she would deny every single shit when u confront them.

a week of melancholy

2010-04-04T00:54:00.002+08:00

it's supposed to be happy

with all the comments, and reviews, appreciations, chilling out, birthdays, workloads.

there's not a moment that i do not miss you. when you were sitting next to me watching that stupid movie that you have always liked. when you were pouring soda when i turn on my favourite show. when i sit next to you watching how u solve the game that i will never now learn how to. when you called to buy me chocolates after your basketball practice. when you ask me how to solve algebra and i failed to explain it to you. when you bring back mini surprises for me after your tuition classes. when you crack lame jokes and made us laughed. when you bring back injured baby animals and ask me how to fix them.

wishing you were somehow here again. so that i can keep all my promises to you - that i can never now. you should have warned us, so that we can fix it. you should have warned us, so that we would have known and be able to help you with all your wishes. you should have warned us, so that i could have kept my promises. you should have warned us, so that i can fit you in the nicest clothes. you should have warned us, so that we could have eaten more sushi together. you should have warned us, so that i can spoil you rotten. you should have warned us, so i can tell you everyday how much i love you.

last week was awful that, its the second year that we couldn't celebrate your birthday. its sadder when i think of people who wronged you; when i misunderstood your condition as teenage rebellion. it gets even more terrible that, i couldn't recall any birthdays that we have celebrated with you. there will be no chance. not anymore.

im sorry that i did not take initiative to celebrate your birthdays. im sorry that i did not earn money soon enough to fit you into the nicest clothes. im sorry that i did not treat you to a decent meal before. im sorry that i did not buy you the phone that i have promised. im sorry that i did not bring you to starbucks. im sorry that i always push you to work with dad. im sorry that i was born a girl instead. im sorry that i did not notice your condition earlier to fix it; and everything ends there.

if there's an afterlife. i want you to be with me - with us altogether as a family again.

i will always love you.

Chopsticks

2010-03-26T18:27:00.002+08:00

Random or not? I'd say it's a little bit of both. I have this weird obsession with chopsticks. When I makan, it feels awkward to eat with fork & spoon. I even eat spaghetti with chopsticks. [psst.. only at home] Well, as you know [or don't], chopsticks comes in a pair. Often used as a metaphor for co-operation and group work etc. I think there's a saying, but can't remember.

So, this occur to me when I was chatting with The Boss. Don't take it literally, it's just a nickname. We always have this hang out sessions.. just to chill out somewhere, play some pool game, UNO cards and gossips. It used to be 4, back in highschool. We were like.. chopsticks together. Well, 2 pairs of them. Tuition classes, shopping, bowling, chilling out. It has always been 4 of us together.

When grad, Ms. Boss departed; Ms. Skinny stayed; Ms Shorty lost contact. Dozens of reasons, chilling out have been a seasonal thing. And Ms. Shorty... was dating this guy since highschool. Thats another part of the story i blogged quite some time ago. *here*

Back to the chopstick story... To me, friends are like chopsticks. They are here for one reason - to be there for each other when there's anything. By anything, includes merry, melancholy, messed-ups, and make-ups. [it rhymes, I know] LOL

Back in highschool, girls like to read this japanese fashion magazine, despite the fact that, they couldn't understand even a syllable of it... Which I kinda despise for being unreasonably irrational. I wasn't very much into it, Ms. Boss and Ms Shorty paired up with this bimbo in my class; Ms Skinny was in account. That was the time that all this drama started. I guess people just don't work the way you think they will. I admit, I'm overly possessive and sometimes, manipulative. And when I feel that, the channel doesn't connect... I'll just ditch it.

Furthermore, I have had issues with Ms. Shorty since... Primary? [fyi, we studied in the same primary school but in different class] and, it has deep rooted in highschool year 1. It's a seating problem. I reported to school late because of some address thingy. So, when I enter the classroom, which is with Ms. Shorty. I sat beside her. The next day, she moved to a table across.

I know this sounds like a 4 years old issue.. but I'll probably carry it to my grave. What you treat is what you get. Well.. It wasn't an instant thing, yet accumulated. 'Lama-lama jadi bukit' I know. Call me a calculative bitch.

It has been a constant. When I'm not needed.. I'm invisible; When I'm needed, I'm a friend. Back at that time, I wasn't close with Ms Boss [she was in a different class] , and had a few chit-chatting with Ms. Skinny [same class with me, but different year]. Eventually, I was by myself besides Ms. Pineapple who sat next to me [she came here later the month after me]. Guys.. they sucked to the max that time. Stories later. Its officially the most embarrassing thing that has happened in my entire life.

Soon as Year 1 ended, we were re-assigned to different classes according to our grades. Ironically, Ms. Shorty was assigned to the same class with me. Same thing with Ms. Boss, and Ms. Skinny. Ms. Boss came to me first, say that she wants to sit beside me; just 5 minutes before Ms. Skinny... Last comes Ms. Shorty. I have always been wondering why I said yes back then. After that, we have been BFFs ever since.

I was the reason this whole BFF thing is happening... and Ms. Shorty kinda take it for granted. We have had issues... big and sort-of we-go-seperate-way issues. I have noticed, felt horrible about it... we resolved it some how. Yet, the 'bukit' turned Everest.

I have a major crack head issue with people who I consider friend, take it for granted. After 4 years... she finally called us for a chill out session - because she broke up with that guy that she has been dating since highschool.. and why they broke up? Because the guy cheated on her, after she called for a relationship break.

Call me a bitch... but I think that is non of my business because I wasn't part of the story. Fyi, I didn't know that she was dating that guy, until some random ass from junior batch came and ask me whether they are dating or not. That is how you treat your BFF. Probably I was the only one who were that naive to think that I am her BFF, or was? Anyway, it doesn't really matter now.

And Ms Skinny... she's turning into Ms Shorty in the early stage. Busy all the time and everything the universe rotates around the boyfriend. Valentines, White Christmas, Red Christmas, Anniversary, Weekend hangout, Movie session, Dinner, Meet the parents, Travel to hometown, Buy him breakfast, Birthdays. Out of 365days, couldn't there be a chill out session for the so-called BFFs?

Call me ego and self-centered, but I rather spend my time for something else.. than wasting it on a relationship that I know it will repeatedly fail again.

Okay.. I was lost

2010-03-02T19:52:00.002+08:00

Not lost in love, or lost in transition. Nothing to do with anything.. okay?

It has been... 3 or 4 months? You do the math.. hate maths. Since i last posted. New year? or was it Christmas? Anyway... I was lazy, just don't feel like posting anything. Once in a while, random stuffs pops up and had this awkward rush to post something up here. By the time i signed in.. either I forgot what I wanted to post.. or I fell asleep waiting. Yeah... have been using this not-so-brilliant internet service provider for quite some time.

So.. I'll be posting on Why I'm not posting anything recently:-

1. Random stuffs

Sometimes I'm inspired by small little things. Things I ate, things I saw, things I touched, things I sensed among people's relationship [fyi, I'm bad with relationships], things I heard from people [mostly ms. pudu & ms. hartamas] Its more like a chick flick, than a blockbuster. I will notice it.. but probably will forget afterwards. So, either I have this flick thingy on-the-spot, or it will be just a gust of wind.

2. Pictures

I have always liked to see photos, take photos, read photos. Cant actually read it but.. analyse it sounds even nerdy-ier. LOL. Anyway.. after the FRIM incident which I cleverly slipped my DSC-W90 into the stream of cold flowing water.. Photoshop is so needed if I'm ever going to post anything. Either I rather spend my time editing watching another episode of Bones, or again... it will be another gust of wind.

3. Sensitive issues

These are not really random stuffs. Sometimes are things that I got frustrated about.. things I hate about.. .things I would like to comment about [genuinely referred as gossips] are mostly untouchable issues. Who's flirting with who, who had a crush on who... I feel okay if people are commenting about my stuffs.. gossips I call it. either my hair sucks... or my body stinks or my clothing is ugly. I take compliments & despises. [whether i'll be depressed or not its my problem] However, things that I can take.. is not necessary that its okay for other people. So, either I anonymously post it, or don't post it at all... By the way.. I feel that anonymous post are meaningless. an object is just an object if it is not addressed. Another gust of wind

4. Temperamental posts

I'm not bad-tempered, I'm not hyper, I'm not emo, I'm not out-going, I'm not socio-able [most of the time], I'm not introvert [I think], I'm not dreamy, I'm not rational. Everything seems to be out of the way it should be when it comes to me. Please, I'm not stressing that im special.. By the way, I'm not. But, sometimes, little emotional changes that inspires a blogpost, will soon be over. It inspires, but it stops somewhere... mostly before I reach internet access and sign-in for a blogpost. That is probably why I have been posting about movies that I have watched and felt strongly about.

5. Passion

I'm studying ID, which basically means that my life is occupied by it most of the time. I have always hoped that I will be the best of my kind - even though it is depressing to say that I'm not. Passion grows in time. At first, its just a flick in my head before I decided to be involved with the building design industry.Passion is not included in my resume. Yet, it grows in time. This is the state of time where, I'm quite uncertain of my life.

So, next time when I'm posting, or not. It has to relate back. Itsy bitsy part of my life which I'm willingly to share. Nowadays, you'll get sued for expressing in your own blog. I guess, that is the greatest obstacle for bloggers. Whereas, my life isn't that fantastic as I thought it is [the blogroll counter tells...] So, blogpost is going to be vastly reduced.

Fyi, I'm reading the asm brief now. Guess what.. I might be cancelling my account after reading it. Cheer up people! It will be another day tomorrow. Suddenly feels like James Bond. The difference is, I'm going to die and I dont have a Walter PPK.

p.s : This post isn't even entitled for a CNY post. So, happy day onwards. ^^

Its not the Eve, anymore

2009-12-31T09:46:00.006+08:00

Christmas, usually will be spent at home. With my TV, Mom, Dad, Meg & Will; probably alone if Eng's wedding did not turn up. Lifestyle in KL, pretty much attached to various shopping malls and arcades of bars, lounge and restaurants. The first few experience is rather fun, but it gets dull after maybe 4 or 5 times.

New Year, will be of higher chance to couch potato at home as well. The traffic, the crowd, the long wait for our food. Call me self-centered but I'll go crazy if my food is stuck somewhere in the oven, burn into charcoal and the waitress claim that its the crowd. Afterall, food they serve in eventful days, normally suck to the max. Of course, 'because of the crowd'. Dad, normally have plans with his friends; same thing goes with mom. In fact, she went Pangkor with her colleagues this morning, for the coming 4 days. As for Meg, she had plan for Christmas; New Year will be stuck at home with me. And, Im stuck here working [pssst.]

For the past week, or maybe more... I've heard people talking about New Year resolution- like what are you going to do for the coming 2010. Looking at the future, is sort of, not what I normally does. I don't like things to be planned out on a cartograph pie chart or something; yet, they had to be somehow planned too. Of course, random stuffs comes out all the time and I like my life how it is now. A 3 months deal, 6 month or a year thing is more time manipulated. I prefer stuffs which works in stages - performance wise.

The one thing that I'll repeat every year is that, recall what I did for the past 365 days. College has been occupying my life since 2006 - and it is time. New people, current relationship, craps, politics, competitions, hope, and stuffs. Everyday stuffs, sentimental stuffs, crazy stuffs. Pretty much everything. Things that Im proud of, Im glad of, Im happy about, Im sad recalling, Im blushing thinking about, Im mad of, Im terrified about. 2009, I would say is heavily affected by 2008. It was a year I consider wasted. Cant get enough of the mourning, you can say whatever shit you want.. Tell me about sudden lost of love.

2008, was a year to remember.
2009, was a year mourning.
2010, will be a year to recover.

Happy 2010 everybody.

tesstotoro & vampire

2009-12-13T16:33:00.006+08:00

If I dont blog this, I'll probably die of ... I dont know what it is. Anyway, people have cravings. Right? A mug of perfectly brewed coffee, vintage wine, fine dark chocolate, freshly plucked strawberries, sunrise, fresh air, cigarettes [famous among archi students], even a sizzling hot pot of bahkutteh. [okay. thats a little too far.]

So, a couple of months ago, I was google-ing. Basically on random stuffs that pops-up to my mind. A song I heard from the radio which I do not know its title; an actor I saw the movie but have no idea who his or her name is. Anything you name it. Soon after I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button - I went googling. Old movies that Brad Pitt was acting in. Somehow, I have this soft spot for vampire-related movies. As old as Dracula, to the Underworld 3. [fyi, the older the better. Maybe its because of the classical setting.]

Call this crazy, but I once waited for HBO's showtime in the midnight [around 3am?] in my relative's house. My home, do not subscribe to HBO. So, have to lah. ^^ Such a pain in the a$$ for my dad that time. He knew I love to watch movies.

Anyway, back to this vampire thingy. As I was browsing, I read this - Interview With The Vampire: The Vampire Chronicles. Brad Pitt starred, with Tom Cruise. Call that vintage. It caught my eye because I have never seen this movie in Malaysia's HBO channel. [fyi, Its banned here] The movie is made from Anne Rice's novel series - The Vampire Chronicles. Somehow, I managed to source this movie from a friend's house, and borrowed. Not sure where she bought the DVD. It doesnt look appetising at the first glance - something went wrong with the poster. It looked more like a horror movie. But it's more to a sad, sinful vampire romance. You are absolutely right, I'm so feeling don't want to return it now. :'(

To enhance the vampire-nesses of the movie, I watched it in the midnight. ^^ Sadly, my sis went to a camp, only will be coming back on the coming Tuesday. Will watch it again for the 100th time? LOL ... Brad Pitt have this masculine face and jaw line, which somehow it softens when you see in his velvety eyes. He plays a vampire in this movie, with a human heart. See the irony? He is passionate, loving, strong but emotionally fragile at the same time.

What surprises me is Tom Cruise. Call me a bias. The face of Ethan Hunt pops up whenever I think of Tom Cruise. It sort of imprinted his image as the multi-talented super spy agent. I have always liked action packed movies, but more towards Daniel Craig's 007 and Bruce Willis' type. He just looked so.. fragile to me.

Anyway, he stars in this particular vampire movie as well. Lestat, is the character's name. He should have carried this line along his career and make it his icon, like how Johnny Depp did with Jack Sparrow. The bold, enthusiastic, defiant arictocrat vampire... I've gotta tell you, I'm really impressed.

It feels like you are watching a piece of art, how he manipulate the minor details in the emotions and gestures. Its classic! With those satin smooth blond curls, translucent sea blue eyes, alabaster skin over the slender fingers with glass like nails holding a glass of wine, how could you resist him? And, the killing French accent.

Okay.. and Surprise no.3, would be Kirsten Dunst.

Yeah, the Spiderman girl. Remember? She plays the little vampire in the movie, 'daughter' of Lestat & Louis - Claudia. She's probably the only girl spent time romantically in a movie with BOTH Cruise & Pitt at the same time. Jealous? Cry lah~ LOL

and the Ultimate Surprise!! Antonio Banderas is in the movie too!! Let the picture tell you how elegantly dangerous is he in the movie. ^^

No words can describe this.

P.S : Kill me bah!!!

[Note: All pictures sourced from Google Image Search]

Worried : dedicated to Meg

2009-12-10T00:14:00.003+08:00

To be frank. I'm Worried

I am worried that you met someone new.

I am worried that you met someone I don't know.

I am worried that you met someone that might hurt you.

I am worried that you met someone who doesn't deserve your attention.

I am worried that you met someone that makes relationship casual and disposable.

It worries me because I dont know how to teach you.

It worries me because I dont know how he'll influence you.

It worries me because I dont know how it will affect mom n dad.

It worries me because I dont know what is your perception of a relationship.

It worries me because I dont know whether you know that Im worried.

I feel like asking you every single details of your life. Sometimes, I cant bear it when you treat us like dirt, or disposable toilet roll... We love you. We have always wanted what's best for you. But, When you turn your back on us and we felt that friends are more important than your family, it worries me even more. For me, family plays a big part of a person's life. They are who you are. When everything fails, thats the only place you can lie down in peace and sleep like a baby.

Call me a tyrant. I have always wanted what's best for you.

You are what that's left for me.

Overprotective, It's my job to keep you safe.

I wouldn't want anyone or anything to hurt you.

I will support you, on every single decisions you make, as long as I'm convinced that you will be safe.

You are too precious, too valuable, too dear to be given to a person, that I dont even know who, what, how he is.

Just promise me that you'll tell when shit happens.

Keep yourself safe from anything and everything.

I Love You and I Always Do.

Wish you all the best with your new dude.

P.S : Don't break my heart.

Farewell

2009-11-28T14:22:00.007+08:00

Will temporary postpone the Taiwan post...coz its taking me forever to finish editing the pics =.=

Anyway... A lil' pasta for now ^^

As you know, I've been into the internship program for the past six month. This coming Monday will be my last day. Thanks to the colleagues' persistence, we had a joyful and splendid farewell in this place I visited a long time ago. I hope you guys really enjoyed it ^^ It was a dinner, awkwardly, on a Thursday and only 4 colleagues made it there. It was fun anyway, quality time spent together, and made it memorable, and immortal.

Before we made our decision to go pasta-ourselves-up, we were exchanging food informations. As in-introducing nice foods, delicious stuffs and hangout places to share among us. Its amazing how we share the same passion for foods ^^ The small talks during the lunch time, 'tea-time' and times when I wander around the office and end up in Tridilab chatting + sampat-ing around.

Anyway, Back to Bel Pasto Pizza. Guess what? They have their own blogspot page *here*

Their Establishment, quality food, excellent service and good packaging.

The ambiance [note the hot guy there, thats the owner ^^]

That night was rather quiet there... Just nice for a gathering... not too quiet, not to crowd-y, nice light, nice food, dimmed light, cozy atmosphere. Everything seems to be perfectly organised for us to gather and enjoy. Ordered our food a lil' slow, because we cant make up our mind to decide what to eat. Everything seems to be so appetizing and irresistible. Soon after we settle down, crowds of people starts to come in. Lucky we made a reservation. ^^

While waiting for our food #01 = pics

Nandai, Amy, Weiru & Me

While waiting for our food #02

Chungmeng

While waiting for our food #03

While waiting for our food #04

...and finally...

The Appetizer

The soup of the day was Pumpkin soup, but they sold out. So, we ordered their signature Mushroom soup ^^ to serve with the Garlic Toast.

Of course, the chatters continue too...we talked about everything...Not literally everything..but I enjoy the conversations coz, 6 months is not short but its not long either to know each and every details of the company. And we were talking about nice foods, friends, vacation plans... We just couldn't stop, until the pasta arrives ^^

Different versions of pasta, Different Taste, Same Enjoyment. Dont you just love them? Carbonara, Salmone, Lasagna... Ask me and I'll describe it mouth-watering-ly delicious to u ^^

And their Signature Lamb Shank served with Risotto. Not too much herbs, not too mutton-y, not too much tomatoes, not too much seasonings. The whole combination is fine tuned to its perfection. 3 of us can't really stand the mutton's smell.. but they loved it. 10 thumbs up for this ^^

Last but not least - DESSERTS!!!

Its so true that girls have a million soft spots in them for desserts, so do guys!! Instead of sharing a slice of BPP's signature Tiramisu, which costs rm8.90 per [super big] slice, we decided to have a slice EACH...

There's another one across the table ^^

A chilled slice of Tiramisu, fresh from the fridge.. Set nicely on a slight curved plate... decorated with chocolate syrup and sieved with cocoa powder on top. It's just heaven!!! Ouh...and there's a way to eat it. Cut it a spoonful, take a deep breath, hold your breath...put that spoonful in your mouth and taste it slowly. The cocoa, butter finger, cream cheese will b all over your mouth and even your breathe.. Dont worry, you wont swallow that fast coz you will be so in heaven and got lost in your wonderland.

So far, It's the best Tiramisu I've ever tasted. Added up with great companions and food passionates... Worthy to be remembered as one of the best times in my life ^^

And, here's the before and after!! This reminds me of Christmas.. another pasta date? I'm fine with pizza too!!!

Love the Farewell, Love the Companion, Love the Laughters

Love you guys... and thanks for the AWESOME farewell dinner you guys threw ^^

Depression

2009-11-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

Will be depressed for a few days [maybe weeks]

First Impression

2009-11-04T01:02:00.003+08:00

Met this long lost primary schoolmate *thanks to Facebook*

Guy-Next-Door type of person...Easy-going...

so..old-school-way

I asked him the old-school question

T : Wad's your first impression of me?

Y : Giant, Big, Tall.

T : [noob-faced] yea..yea.. wad else?

That is one very obvious statement

I think the whole school knows that

[fyi, I used to be the tallest girl in primary until I grad]

Y : Got that aura to keep people away... Quiet.

Feels like you are going to kill someone if you make sound.

T : o.O Like a bear hybernating? with a DND-sign?

Y : erh...I dunno how bears hybernate.

T : Anyway, I do sound scary from what you described =.=

Y : Come one~ We r kids!! We ain't scared of anything!!

T : Then... you said tht I'm quiet ; but I dont know you back then~

How would you know?

[fyi, I used to be introvert nerd-type kid; just w/o the glasses & study much lesser]

Y : Dude! Your face lah... Everyone knows you!!! Such a special name you have!

[fyi, he's referring to my chinese name. Tess isn't official until ...college? XD]

T : Whoa...Didn't know I was that famous back then...

I always thought that other kids don't like me.

Y : That one I have no idea. But your name is often heard back then... ^^

T : [extremely confused] How could it be? I didn't owe anyone money!!

Y : You'll have to admit that you've got a really cool name. Everybody know you.

Awkward that I discovered the alter ego of mine, from a not-close-at-all primary schoolmate which is not even in the same class...after...blardie 9 years I grad there...

Awkward =.=

p.s what's yours?

Anniversary

2009-10-27T00:37:00.003+08:00

in another 5 hours...its officially 1 year

12 months

52 weeks

365 days

8760 hours

525600 minutes

31536000 seconds

There's not a bit of that

did I not miss you

We all do.

Mom's birthday is in another 2 days.

Just drop by and tell her you love her.

You know she misses you the most.

Too Many Thing

2009-10-22T00:20:00.003+08:00

Yet too little time

Intern is finishing

the bungalow project..my presentation project

Taiwan is taking me forever to finish up with the pics

Intern Reports? precisely 180 days

lighting sculpture..i have approx 3 days before im certified dead

because im quite sure that nippon sucked

so..

God Bless Me

just a little flick here..

Lost Watch

2009-09-28T14:13:00.001+08:00

I lost my watch

technically..its my mom's

so... Im so dead now

How am I suppose to tell her?

Emotional Collide

2009-09-18T01:50:00.006+08:00

Collision happens when 2 objects or individual crosses each other and left part of them behind. It simply reminds me of human relationships.friends. family. child. siblings. colleagues. a hero. pet. even the poor little lizard your car ran over weeks ago. Eventually, traces will be left behind physically, and emotionally. The greater the collision it is, the grander the collision will be.

good and bad collision happens, especially in arguments. People tend to think irrationally where harsh words and vicious emotions are unleashed. When anger controls your frontal lobe, and the grey matters- it means that you care. Those who deserves your attention wont trigger the switch; those who does, doesn't deserve your attention.

think it this way collisions are meant to happen, and it happens for a good reason. Harsh words, they might be emotional, it can be an effort to strengthen his/her point of view. They simply care too much, to the extend that it worries. i have got times that i would like to scold too. But, collision happens for a reason. think positively

Emotional collisionsare precious, as it will be carried to your tombstone. Since it is for eternal, shouldn't you drop the melancholy in your life? There certainly are reasons for angst, anger, maybe vengeance. What remains when blood is to vein? memories. Would you like to have to be remembered as an asshole? or an irritating bitch. It does sound harsh..but also, the closest description that is generally understood. first impression? it will last forever especially for those who collision happens once in your lifetime.

I know I have missed the 10th Sept post...its nothing fun actually.

This is the first birthday of mine, that I didnt get to celebrate with all the ones that i have, and having the most emotional collision with. Celebrating birthdays were always not on top of our family-to-do-list. Usually is the Sunday dinner. Dad works 24/7, hardly gets time with us. Birthday, doesnt really mean much until back in 3 or 4 years.

When we were in elementary, we begged for a birthday cake. Birthday celebrations were hardly pre-posessing coz i wasnt a people-person. Had a birthday party when i was..9 or 10. it sucked, of course Mom got herself busy from dawn till the party ends. from that time onwards, Birthdays, means an extra day off.

Got into college, kids growing up like pumping gasses...we started with Mom's bday. Got screwed too.. but it was fun. Getting together, dad heard the screwing part... then...Wil's...His was easy to remember, still easy now. Just because, his is special...March. The rest of ours were all clustered at the lower half of the year. So, I made a big deal as we tend to forget his birthday easily.

After Wil's, will be dad's. He would like it the conventional way. Hard boiled egg in a bowl of 'Longevity noodle'. Meg's, she requested quite alot. but this year, It was hard for her because...Its suppose to be happy. She was the closest with Wil..same elementary, high school, tuition classes, group of friends, clubs, sports...

On the contrary, I thought it will be easy for me. But, when I was in the particular night...I remembered how he begged mom to buy me a cake... Mom doesnt like it..but he thought that it will be nice for us to blow a cake together...with all the singing, though dad will still reach home late. It was always us, blowing the cake together ever since we started celebrating birthdays. Just a small one...lit up candles...sing to ourselves and make a wish

Sis insisted to buy me a cake this year...It was a raining thursday, just the two of us..Mom forgot coz she was busy with her work thing...Dad didnt realise [prob because i did not want to make a fuss over it] It tends to get harder when I decide to spend it quietly. With Meg over here...watching movies on the TV, chewing off chicken wings n drumsticks... It turns out less burdening...I didnt want to buy a cake this year...coz it will take me prob 1 whole year to finish it. Yet, Meg insisted and she bought me a slice. Its still in the fridge. Meg did excellent in this because Im pretty sure that Its more difficult for her...Its me, my problem.

Emotional collision are extensively hard to deal with, especially a collision that lasted for 17 years. More will come in the future. I still need some time to deal with it. Teary eyes are must-haves all the time. Sometimes...I even feel guilty for the happinesses Im getting. The collision should have lasted forever.

Mom's friend once visited...and I was fooling around with Meg on the couch. There she goes: 'How nice that both of you are so close together? My kids fight.' Im not sure what it feels like but I do hate that feeling. Awkward thoughts have always come up..How nice was it When I were not this close with Meg? Because when he is still here, he will be the middle person, literally and metaphorically. When people asks, do you have any siblings? I dont even feel like answering... Its a reflex to answer it for all these time.

Its time to change.

Time collision with you is a part of my life, my birthday, my dinner, my movie sessions, my not-people-pleaser-moments, my elderly-moments. Im sure it will continue, some day in the future.

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find

You and I Collide

Happy Birthday to me

a merdeka that i hate to spend

2009-08-30T10:40:00.004+08:00

merdeka eve doesnt really mean a lot to me. neither does merdeka.

i wasn't born in the past...but was taught the past-tensed way. so, when friends invites to merdeka celebration, it appears to be another reason of hanging out [a meal, movie date, or even clubs]; which apparently, i do not quite entertain that much.

i've got a date this year, which i hope it has never happened.

i like the way i hang out, getting couch-potatoed in front of my favourite dvd, cd, or your watched-a-million-time movie. i like it when u buy me a drink after your basketball game. i like it when u argued with me about whats for lunch. i like it when u begged my to cook for u. i like it when we were fighting for the lagging-to-the-max old laptop. i like it when u ask me how to write a blog. i like it when u blame me for adding too much salt in your spaghetti.

apparently, i hate this date so much that i prefer to just stick at home with u watching the boring merdeka parade

love you.

I miss that town, I miss the faces

You can't erase, you can't replace it

I miss it now, I can't believe it

So hard to stay, too hard to leave it

If I could relive those days

I know the one thing that would never change

love you

the days, and nights reminds me of you. especially when i reach home, and no one opens the door for me anymore. and the dangling keychain doggy that i bought for you. keep it properly okay? im sure you'll find your way home.

i hardly spent time with you, time flies. remember the chocolate fondue that i promised? and the sushi date? yeah..movies too! i bought the last conan...

remember how i proudly tell everybody about you? handsome, athletic, built and my future boy's role model. why would you? u should have warned me. u should have hinted just a little. a little bit more.

wishing you were somehow here again.

love you

Featured!!!!

2009-08-20T22:01:00.004+08:00

remember this? MSID 13 [Student Saturday] *here* & *here*

it was back in June 2008...and UCSI students were spotted in Kosmo!

yeah..our dear Kahsing.. cun-lah!! paged ur face woh!!

that was an interview by Kosmo! regarding the Hilton Train Project

anyway...

i didnt realised that MSID 3belas were featured in Architecture Malaysia 2008 issue until yesterday. [o.Olll] Thanks to Daphne who was reading the Nautical House project... and I cleverly flipped the page to the back of the book... and there I am!!! [she didnt realise that it was me either.. :P] with the Trash to Treasure crew of course

but pink_apple and my face...whooosh XD

there I am!!

me!! with pink_apple!!!

again..it was fun...and its still fun recalling... I'll miss college soooo much!!!

speaking of which...when is the 4belas??

It Does Surprises me

2009-08-06T22:52:00.004+08:00

I know Chris Daughtry from my idiotic sister...She is a huge fan of American Idol [in case is you dont know what's that, its a reality singing competition show] Everything started when the song - HOME was released after Chris Daughtry didnt win the American Idol. He was in Top 5 or Top 3, dont rmb which season though...

Anyway...saw his CDs, Posters, Music Videos, Concerts and etc...he was rather rock-star-type of person to me. Like..Nickelback? yeah..Chad Kroeger is hot too! Not much guys can carry a nice head of long hairs. Daughtry is more muscular though. Like...really macho type of rock-star...totally opposite from Green Day? :P After a while, Feels Like Tonight has been on the radio for quite some time. Nice, but feels rather heavy after some time [a very long time] XP

Until, No Surprises comes out! Now i get why my sis have been crazy-ing over him.

Watch this first before you read the below parts...

Compare to the previous music videos, Chris Daughtry has become more and more 'delicious' as described by my sis..ahahha Im so totally agree with it~! as in, as delicious as Brad Pitt? *melts* I have never felt so strongly for any music videos by anyone...No Surprises, indeed surprised me of what Chris Daughtry can do.

Keep his name in view, and add into your Hottest RockStar Watchlist~!!

p.s The lyrics is fantastic too!! If other guys sings this...they will bcome a total jerk...

for leaving the other half + blame the relationship...extremely reasonable Exemption for Chris Daughtry..hahahahahah XD

I've practiced this for hours,gone round and round

And now I think that I've got it all down

And as I say it louder I love how it sounds

Cause I'm not taking the easy way out

Not wrapping this in ribbons

Shouldn't have to give a reason why...

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out

When I thought that I wouldn't know how

Held onto it forever just pushing it down

Felt so good to let go of it now

Not wrapping this in ribbons

Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow

There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow

God know we tried to find an easier way

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go

The warm embrace that no one knows

The loving look that's left your eyes

That's why this comes as no,as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out

I bet it's better than where we are now

But after going through this,

it's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Furniture Hunt

2009-07-25T23:23:00.003+08:00

One of the Interior Designer's job [including trainees] are suppose to design/select the loose furnitures besides built-in fittings detailing works for a project, especially residential. I am currently assisting in the interior works of a residential project in PJ SS16, and just finished the proposal of the living room. [the few days back last week which I was hyped-thru-the week], yeah..thats why. =P

Anyway, the design direction that they apply is sort-of Brutalism + Raw-to-Materials + Simplicity + Functional..I just cant find 1 word to describe it, it seems to be a combination of everything :) yeah...very similar to the approach of the upcoming trade center

So...went furniture hunt today [in some places suggested by senior]

Gudang Damansara

I thought its in the Bangsar Village 2, end up its in Bangsar Shopping Center [i thought its the same =P]

Last available set, walnut solids + leather backing

new arrivals, black n brown leather on s/s

*pictures credit to Gudang Damansara*

Gudang Studio

At the Gardens, after I visited the Gudang Damansara. The Sales Rep from Gudang Damansara says that they keep different collection of furniture in 2 of their centers...[means diff stock @ diff place, diff time]

Last set available...

*picture credits to Gudang Studio*

Of course, I asked Michelle about how-furniture-hunts-usually-works before I go la...4th Saturday, working until 1pm, and went lunch with Daphne before I head to Bangsar, the Maarof to be precise...

Before I went Furniture Hunting [instead of shopping], I actually googled, and found this

SPACE Furniture

*picture credits to Google Image Search*

Didn't take any pics though...bcoz the Sales Rep said that she'll email me the pics with the price.

Designer furniture pieces...damn cool right?? I once felt that these stuffs only exists in the movies... =P I like the Red one...who volunteers to buy me a pair? I can settle with only 1 piece too!!

p.s never dream/think of hiring an interior designer to do your house if you dont have a 1mil. [preferably USD]

Its unreasonably hard to do with a tight budget.

Salley Gardens

2009-07-14T23:31:00.006+08:00

Down by The Salley Gardens - Oconnell Maura

Down by the salley gardens my love and I did meet;
She passed the salley gardens with her little snow-white feet.
She bid me take love easy, as the leaves grow on the tree;
But I, being young and foolish, with her would not agree.

In a field by the river my love and I did stand,
And on my leaning shoulder she laid her snow-white hand.
She bid me take life easy, as the grass grows on the weirs;
But I was young and foolish, and now am full of tears.

Posting this is not just meaningless

But it does add a lil' sense into the whole post

What i feel now, is rather beyond description

So...some songs and sentimental moments is all I need right at the moment

I guess, I think, I hope

Longer

2009-07-07T21:28:00.002+08:00

Longer than there've been fishes in the ocean
Higher than any bird ever flew
Longer than there've been stars up in the heavens
I've been in love with you.

Stronger than any mountain cathedral
Truer than any tree ever grew
Deeper than any forest primeval
I am in love with you.

I'll bring fires in the winters
You'll send showers in the springs
We'll fly through the falls and summers
With love on our wings.

Through the years as the fire starts to mellow
Burning lines in the book of our lives
Though the binding cracks and the pages start to yellow
I'll be in love with you.

Longer than there've been fishes in the ocean
Higher than any bird ever flew
Longer than there've been stars up in the heavens
I've been in love with you
I am in love with you..

p.s couldnt sleep well these few days..miss u too much

Should I? Shouldn't I?

2009-07-02T23:02:00.004+08:00

I probably have told Jasmynn about this...Yesterday, my senior told me tht I might need to tag along to the presentation of this bungalow project in Bangsar coz the studio head has another presentation running at the same time. So...i was quite kancheong la...[It means Nervous in Cantonese] about this First-Meet-Client-In-My-Lifetime-Career-Session :P It sounds odd, I know

Then..this morning, when I ask senior wad time he's leaving for the presentation [takut to mention myself] He say, big big big boss is going with studio head for the presentation..I'm abit disappointed la... [tot can go eye-open-kan myself mar] Anyway, have to rush-kan the presentation boards also, due today...So, didnt think much [the presentation is 4pm, studio head will need it before lunch]

Lunch time, only me and studio head going [the ID dept peeps have things to rush also, feeling bad about tht coz it looks like im the free-est person in the entire factory] Hawker stall, and he paid for my wantan mee..[fyi, its a type of noodle] ahahahah...Then, talked about the company abit, college abit, friends abit...and this coming weekend's ArchiDex...so wanna go to the Datum forum, but no $$ la :S A bit odd though, lunch 2 person only... :P

The happy part is, he told me tht there's a meeting on site next tuesday, and he say I can go if I'm free...So, should I consider myself free now? I really wanna go...but I scare other people made excessive comments too...though Im not sure whether they will or will not :S [ter-heard boss told one of the girl in the ID dept saying that, if u got thing to tell - go la ; if not - no need go lor]

should I? shouldn't I?

p.s : dilemma now...and lazy!! LOGBOOK submission 15th July :S

[reading Eclipse...and recently, alot of things happened; some joy, some tears too!! post the movie session with sis after i type my report?? ahahahah]

Sad

2009-06-29T20:59:00.003+08:00

got sad today

well..i guess its added-up-into-everything type of sad

u know the phrase so famous in Spiderman?

With Great Power, Comes Great Responsibility

think it the other way round

i am just not a contempted person, satisfied with what i have.

especially when there are contestants much more powerful than i am

i know life is not about racing to be the first, but im sick of being the substitute player.

Public Enemies made..

2009-06-19T22:31:00.012+08:00

For those who know me for years...only a few i guess :P knows that i always have something for the British guys...for the accents and the charisma *faints* especially those who speaks english that i can understand...

After watching Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street; and The Dark Knight, plus the recent summer blockbuster T4: Terminator Salvation that topped M'sia chart for consecutive 2 weeks in a row~ its not surprising to know that Johnny Depp and Christian Bale are really hot guys~

despite the fact that they are married.. or not? no idea...anyway, the idea of this blogpost is not to stalk their personal life, which has nothing to do with me...but the coming up thriller + action + romance + hot guys movie -->

Public Enemies

personally, i think that there must be at least one or two actor, actress or performer's show, that you will go

*woot!! must watch!!!*

*AHHH!!!!!!!!!* and screamed your way to the cinema

*Omigossshhh!!! i wanna watch!!!*

*is it out yet??!...omg, why is it not out yet~!!!*

*ooh ooh ooooohhhh!!! i wan the premier passes!!!*

For no specific reason, despite that he/she is inevitably hot..same thing goes to music too~

Anyway, back to this Public Enemies...I wasn't aware of any coming soon movies despite that T4 is a must watch, and will be heading for Zac Efron's...I saw the movie poster while walking into the cinema...and Johnny Depp's name is on the poster...

Official poster of Public Enemies, sourced from Google Image Search

I didnt realise that it's Johnny Depp until i stopped and read the details...And it surprises me more when I discovered that Christian Bale is involved in the movie too!!! And I went *omigossshhhh* instantly!!

Christian Bale is playing the good guy in the Public Enemies

while Johnny Depp is memang, the public enemy...

It has been...almost 2 weeks, after i saw the poster, I havent watch the trailer yet, and surprisingly...I was too busy to google it...But still,I want to watch it; Not only bcoz of Johnny Depp, but also Christian Bale!! *in deep need of iced water*

i started to know Johnny Depp, was in the Pirates trilogy...ya..the suave Jack Sparrow!!! friends are very into Orlando Bloom, i just cant take my eyes off the cheeky and charismatic Sparrow...and the odd accent coz im pretty sure that he's born American...

Jack Sparrow and Bloom (cant rmb the character's name, sorry :P)

Speaking of which, among all the Tim Burton movies that Depp did, I love Sweeney Todd the most!! He portrayed the demon barber...I dont know, he seems to understand the character perfectly and every inch of the emotions are being re-played as in he is Todd...You can hardly get an actor that impresses you to the max!! For me at least...

As for Christian Bale, I have previously blogged about what i found~ :P Mostly about the T4 actually. Fyi, Im obsessed with the Terminator Series, since childhood...Basically, my dad shares the same interest in watching Action-packed blockbusters. Every year, there will be at least 10 movies that we will watch together...the Terminator, is simply irresistible, when it comes together with The Dark Knight.

The Machinist, an insomnia patient who goes a lil-bit extreme at the end

I wanna watch!!!!!

Guess what, he was/is actively involved with art films...independent sort of la~ special, and different from summer blockbusters...The one who got him famous was *here*...and this movie, The Machinist, I doubt that its screened here because it looked so, artsy...which is a lil beyond-acceptance over here in Malaysia... He is one extremely passionate artist I would say... until he turned himself into this...

Fyi, this is not a Halloween prank...

he did lost weight into this look for the film!!

Also, his another movie, the American Psycho, not quite sure whether i got it correct...had me drooling over my laptop keyboard. The all-rounded, smart looking, extremely hot guy plays a psycho killer...how can you resist that?? Either one of the elements mentioned above is strong enough for reasoning me to watch a movie...but, ALL THREE??!! Its almost the same concept as wenyi was addicted to Twilight...

Anyone seen this DVD on the rack??

As I mentioned earlier, I have a thing over British guys...Fyi, Christian Bale is a Welsh born actor, and so far, he has been doing great job mimicking various accents!! Remember Disney Picture, Pocahontas back in ...1995?? dont quite remember though...that was Christian Bale's voice!!!

sourced from PasteMagazine.com

"...the film is an adaptation of Bryan Burrough’s book that tells of the mob's rise and fall in the 1930s-40s. Johnny Depp will be playing John Dillinger, while Bale will be Melvin Purvis, who led the FBI's hunt for Dillinger and captured more public enemies than any other agent in FBI history. This part should also allow Bale to use yet another new accent (for those keeping count at home, it'll be number seven)."

Anyway, so feeling wanna watch??

p.s Public Enemies screening nationwide 4th July...

all pictures are sourced from Google Image Search unless stated

plain mundane

2009-06-17T21:02:00.002+08:00

what if i told him?

what if i told you?

what if i said something right?

what if i said something wrong?

there are some time in your life that you are just uncertain of everything that has happened, going to happen, or even happening. i have never tried any of these, and none of that...it has been on and off that, my fb status was about getting a life? as in, i enjoy my life to the fullest besides shopping with my BFFs?

sometimes, its rather confusing because all the shitty emotions turns up at your doorstep more and more frequent..i have got a lot, but wanting for more at the same time. life has been easy and not easy at the same time...what will you do when you are stuck in the middle? your right brain is telling you to do something stupid, but your left brain is telling you not to be stupid.

which? how? why? what if?

should probably kill the person who comes out with the phrase 'what if'

if there's no 'what if', i probably have told him

if there's no 'what if', i probably have told you

if there's no 'what if', i probably have said something wrong

if there's no 'what if', i probably have said something right

and i would have got my life.

100 truths Tagged by Meg

2009-06-16T20:51:00.004+08:00

The 100 truths about me.

001. Real name: Soh Bee Hian, Tess
002. Nickname(s): tesstotoro
003. Age: turning 2x10
004. Horoscope: Virgo
005. Male or Female: Not Male
006. Elementary: MCA Desa Jaya
007. Middle School: SJK (C) Desa Jaya
008. High School: SMK TE
009. College school: UCSI SABE
010. Hair colour: used to be black

011. Long or short: very Long
012.Loud or Quiet: quiet
013. Sweats or Jeans: sweats
014. Phone or Camera: both
015. Health freak: ya
016. Drink or Smoke: drink
017. Do you have a crush on someone: ...not sure
018. Eat or Drink: both
019. Piercings : one on each ear
020. Tattoos: unacceptable YET

021. Social or Anti-Social: in between
022. Righty or Lefty: righty
023. First piercing: 5 or 6?? dont rmb
024. First relationship: tbc
025. First Best Friend: ...my BFFs
026. First Award: ...wad type of award??
27. First Kiss: mom n dad
028. First Pet: ...dog?
029. First Big Vacation: furthest was Penang when i was...7?
030. First Love at first sight: damn long time ago liao la...

031. First Big Birthday: elementary 5?
032. First Surgery: nil.
033. First sport you joined: Basketball
034. Orange or Apple Juice: mixed!!
035. Rock or Rap: Rock - love Nickelback
036. Country or Screamo: as long as not screamo
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet Boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: none of those..
039. Night or Day: Night
040. Sun or Moon: Moon

041. TV or Internet: TV Internet Wifi Ipod PSP ++
042. PlayStation or xbox: PlayStation
043. Kiss or hug: Kiss and Hug
044. Iguana or turtle: Iguana
045. Spider or bee: Spider
046. Fall or spring: Fall
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball: none of those
049. Eating: korean sweets..fyi, i dont speak korean
050. Drinking: iced water

051. Excitement level: 75/100
052. I'm about to: Blog, until this stupid tag thing popped up
053. Listening to: Kris Allen & Adam Lambert
054. Plan for today: logbook, but i think will end up sleep to the max
055. Waiting for: someone

056. Energy level: 80/100, juz showered + hair laundry
057. Thinking of someone: ...u?
058. Want kids: as long as they r not crying
059. Want to get married: why not?
060. When: when time comes...

061. How many kids do you want: 2 or 3?
062. Any names in mind: xuan
063. What did you want to be when you were little: the worst job ever...a teacher
064. Careers in mind: CEO / Senior Senior Senior Designer
065. Mellow future or wild: Wild
066. Something you would never try: SkyDiving
067. When do you want to die: when im almost dead??
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny: mixed
070. Shorter or Taller: much much much taller

071. Protective or Caring: both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: who?
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: i've got flabby ones now...
075. Hooked-up or Relationship: none
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: Hesitant
077. Muscular or Normal: flabby...falls under which category??
078. Kissed a stranger: tbd
079. Broken a bone: erm...disjointed counted in??
080. Lost glasses or contacts: No.

081. Ran away from home: in my dreams
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: Dino-Crisis, PSP
083. Killed somebody: zombies in House of The Dead
084. Broken some one's heart: mom n dad's
085. Had your heart broken: 2008, Oct 27th
086. Been arrested: im a 100% good student
087. Cried when someone died: 2008, Oct 27th
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: no
089. Yourself: ?? wad?? ?.?
090. Miracles: None happened to me, but i do believe

091. Love at first sight: I believe, but never happened to me either
092. Heaven: place with lots n lots of food + no weight count~
093. Santa Claus: Nightmare Before Christmas
094. Tooth fairy: Dentist appointment
095. Kiss in the first date: This has never happened to me
96. Angels: David Archuleta version is so nice
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: sort of...
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now?: it can be better
099. Do you believe in God?: Yes.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 7 people: Michelle Jasmynn Victor Nigel KimYang Ruth GaryNg

p.s. today no blogpost la...busy with edward and bella now.. :P

fyi # 09

2009-06-12T00:26:00.001+08:00

save today for tomoro...

in deep shit + very urgent XD

fyi # 07 08

2009-06-10T22:04:00.004+08:00

today is finally today *phew*

have been dragging my blogpost extensively.. i doubt alot people read...anyway...yesterday was...so so la...morning CAD abit here n there the 4pcs living room section views, then, lunch with the whole group of peeps in a new place...very hot though...but slightly cheaper food, and more variety :P fyi, i dont eat mix rice, i just dont like...dunno why

afternoon, i finish CAD in the morning d mar...continue the cabinet for the 6 pantry lor...so far, got a few options, but havent go for 'tutorial'... now is 'full time' work on bungalow project, and part time do the office built in cabinet project...but Mr Lau seems to favour Daphne more...might/might not get to do the stuffs...

go back to Sea of Cabinets, but this time is the Office cabinets..the other day was kitchen's... dont have guidelines, just the purpose for the cabinets...file archieve, pantry...dunno keep wad...quite blur la...but roughly sketched a few...the most important thing is..i dunno who to show..!! and, recently got addicted with tapered end furniture...damn yeng!!

thats my second Tuesday in JDW...felt so home-y~~

+++

as for today, SaoInn was in office super early in the morning...cuz i was late for 10mins...WTF right?? overslept again...Kris and Adam's fault la...i youtube-d non-stop.. Just a Little Too Not Over You~~ and little David too~ wakakak...

anyway, i cepat cepat go show him the 'drawings' that i did...which i think he almost fainted when he saw that 'thing'...superbly incomplete...but, he is very nice person la...not as scary as he looks, he ask me to ask Daphne and Amy for some samples for detail drawings...i go ask..study the drawing abit, draw...repair...think, study..understand abit...actually, learn alot...a lot of stuffs that college didnt teach...

lunch...i feel that the most anticipated part of the whole working day is actually lunch time, we get to talk and gossip abit...comment abit...discuss abit...carpool in Mr Ceacar's car...then, discuss abit-bit about his viktor & rolf... i was like...??? what is that at first :P lunch was joyful la...

the good thing about working in JDW is...they have plenty car park space which is FOC. tranquil working environment, the entrance looks like a retreat/resort...near to the airport, very im-in-vacation mood...good in the sense that, its not very stressful..

but, built environment wor, where got not stressful 1?? either u r OMFG stressed up, or everyday stressed up only... so, the working environment does help up with the mentality part la...fyi, friendly and very friendly colleagues are essential stress reliever when u r in deep sh*t...believe me~! i think that is what the apple need the most now...

but, i dont have internet connection la...cannot MSN... :'( how come the ID dept can MSN and Facebook 1?? snob*snob* so, my iPod is actually my saviour...coz im using a 75bucks unbreakable nokia...will not change phone in a very long time...wakakaka

finally...got the 'not-so-complete' drawing completed, shown SaoInn and he explained the overall design idea of the living room, and i need to CAD another cabinet shelf... that was around 330pm d...coz he was attached with the PJTC interior works in the ID dept... i diam-diam-ly reading Twilight la... :P in pdf file...wakakaka...

then, read some books that SaoInn put in the 'reading list' :P... and ate the rocky stick tht my sis gave me i bought the whole carton for her...then i get 1 pack only.. :S then...idea came around 545...which i CAD until 700, off i go.. :P

p.s finally, i rmb the other ID dept. girl's name, Wei Ming; and the very tall guy, NanTai...he borrowed he his pendrive today while transferring the detail section sample that SaoInn asked me to refer to...

WHEN TO START THE LOG BOOK REPORT??!! still feeling super lazy!!!

fyi # 04 05 06

2009-06-09T20:22:00.002+08:00

well...previous post was until wednesday right??

after that Monday meeting, and seniors' wednesday meeting, they basically assigned me to design a few stuffs la...Utility room, i already finish-kan...and now they are dealing with this column problem in the living room, to cover-up the Vent Pipe and the Soil Pipe that runs through the living room corner..though its in the corner, but will still be odd if its just a simple box-up...hard to explain here la...

Thursday & Friday is more to -> DO your work part...everybody seems to be extremely busy over there...i drawn, sketched, designed...but dunno who to go 'tutorial' for...fyi, it REALLY feels like you are attending a tutorial, but the issue now is, designer wants to see your design or not...instead of right and wrong...so far, Mr Marimuthu, and ChungMeng has been very constructive in commenting the designs...

Seniors are really seniors, they can foresee wad ever shit that is going to happen, will happen and surely happen in the design elements...i have been bz copying down their comments on wadever stuff i designed...too much that i cant catch some parts.. XD

oooh...and, remember that i said that ChungMeng went out for site visit? then he showed me the construction progress of the PJTC...damn cun the pics!! but cannot post here la...so, paiseh la!! wadever that they asked me to 'think' of, that i can remember (they like to say, i think a bit la...see what can you do...at first it sounds very confusing, coz i dunno where to start 'think'...it would be easier to understand is they change the word 'think', back to 'design'...) i have basically come up with a few options

but there are alot of stuffs that needs further confirmation from the client especially...and the seniors was busy with door and window schedule, drawing amendments, non-stop running here n there, calling here n there, going upstairs and downstairs, in and out of the office, here and there across the very long table...i think i was the free-est person in the whole building, coz i dunno wad to do... coincidentally, Eng was in the office that day...so, i go n kacau him again, gossip about the apple abit..here n there... fyi, Eng's last day in JDW is this coming 15th...

then, i very clever, asked him for anything to do...then he ask me to design an office's pantry...well, i thought that it'd be very little...so, i say ok lor~ mana tau, the office so big, that they have 3 pantry for staff, and 2 file storage area...additional with the Chairman room's cabinet, i have 6 cabinet, 2 office desk and 2 display shelf to design... i got stunned!! but since im free, just do la...

do..wait, think...resource, wait...read, sketch...see, think...draw, hatch...wait, see..look...LUNCH!

but my thursday lunch was at the office too...the leftovers from wednsday's rice dumplings...rupa-rupanya, Mr Yong the technical senior always eat lunch in the office, unless he is assigned for site visit or something...and Mr Marimuthu, always in office during lunch 1...

shortly after the peeps are back, SaoInn called up the group meeting on the bungalow project somewhere 330...but he was called away for something urgent a few mins after he was discussing with Mr Marimuthu...fyi, he is the studio head which means he make all the decisions...

so, the discussion is hung there dunno wad to follow up to...nothing to do...then...the rest of the day, i get back to the cabinet design la...read, resource...think, draw...wait, read...draw, think...and revise some of the living room options...added a few actually...dunno whether they r useful or nt...according to Mr Marimuthu, the un-applied designs are useful in the next bungalow project...

friday friday friday...nothing much

still working on the living room area that i was previously attached to, but added up with the cabinet thingy...its a forth and back progress...here a bit, there a bit...Ouh, and today is Mr Ceasar's last day or something...they r having this farewell thingy...

during the lunch time...almost everybody is there...there were 8 of us...ngam ngam sit one table :P eat and chat...i think i ter-squill the farewell planning that Amy and Daphne they all were planning...still dont get the very tall guy's name... :S but everybody is very friendly and cheeky...very casual and comfy...i guess im the only odd thing there... :P

saturday holiday...went Signature Gold Class Terminator Salvation with dad...damn fun !! first time !!! too comfy until didnt finish my popcorn...normally it will be all gone before the movie even goes half...damn comfy lor!!!! got addicted with Gold Class d...after Gold Class, is Sushi Zanmai...mom n dad = big fan of Unagi...read it here

sunday off... went brunch-hunting with sis, then book-hunting at Popular, Metro Prima..bought the whole Twilight series + Zita Law...some makan makan...minum minum...thats Sunday

Monday...late for 4 mins

still continue with the living room thingy, and the cabinet thingy...but got stuck a bit la...then...resource, read, think, wait...LUNCH

today Daphne and ChungMeng nt free, lunch with SaoInn and Amy...and the very tall guy...still don get his name.. :S shortly after lunch, SaoInn ask me to CAD the living area's section views x4 pcs...i think he meant 4, but he ter-said 3 view...and i heard 3 view...got everything done b4 i leave the office

meeting was at 5pm, again...abit scary...cuz Daphne n ChungMeng sit the far away space d...means i have to roll close to the 'meeting table' la...sitting next to Mr Lau...abit scary...stressed up cuz im only intern student...haiz...next time don go tht fast..

again, the Sea of Technical Terms has drowned me to the max... :S Eng was there for the meeting today though...and small potatoes like me normally will get mentioned at the last...stressed up aLOT now...cuz stuffs that Eng asked me to do, sounds very unconvincing to Mr Lau, who is going to take over the office project previously handled by Eng...suddenly feel very worthless...WTF

p.s fyi, very late d...i'll leave today for tomorrow.. :P

fyi # 03

2009-06-06T21:58:00.002+08:00

Its wednesday

wednesday wednesday wednesday

just a little bit more to the weekend...hope tht diana dint see this, even my supervisors or boss... ahahhahah...now it seems to be a little bit more stuff to do...shown the seniors the grating design and the things that i think nice as per references from books, ChungMeng assigned me to design the Utility Room...i was like...hm..apa itu har?? Store Room?? if it would be a store, they would have named it a Store Room right? I so cleverly cracking my head to try to solve this biggest mystery of the century, gave up, and ask senior wad on earth is tht.

you know, rich peeps actually has alot of housemaids and servants. Utility Room is where their laundry and other stuffs are done...

yeah..i know...design a utility room, sound so kacang putih right?? jus put a few cabinet and leave it there lar...hor?? but...think it the other way, it can be fun. so, i was imagining the maids to go there activate the washing machine la..ini la..itu la...iron clothes la...hang clothes la...tools la...i quite like the end product actually...until i didnt know that senior went out to site visit with studio head.. :S

thats basically the morning part of my first wednesday in JDW

lunchtime peeps!!

Daphne asked me out to lunch with them...but my mom steamed rice dumplings and tapau-ed for me that morning

so, didnt go out la...just makan in the pantry with some boiling hot redtea :) quite nice actually~~ but scared at the same time too...cuz only a few days working there, then bring own stuff eat liao...later ppl think i lansi how?? but i go eat oso i dont really talk...how?? i lansi or nt?? how ar??

end up thinking alot of unused stuffs...cuz wuliao mar...

so, i was done with the Utility Space wednesday morning right?? continue with the other parts tht ChungMeng assigned before he cabut...the Kitchen...but, they have Wet Kitchen and Dry Kitchen...i was imagining dry kitchen is something like a bar?? where people serves drinks and snacks?? to verify my head's version of a dry kitchen, i asked Daphne about that. end up lagi blur la...coz Wet Kitchen has this vent hood...sometimes, Dry Kitchen also have vent hood...so, its like having 2 same kitchen but only different usage lah..isit?? blurrrr...

okay, nvm...then i read and check back the plan from the computer...i saw this weird thing...a Powder Room beside the wet kitchen...i was like..hm...their maids use makeup when they are cooking Rendang Chicken or somehing ar?? need to 'Powder'-kan themselves in this special room?? then...powder room and toilet...not much diff oso...oso got basin, mirror, WC...of course, i ask Daphne also la...she say..maybe its meant for the guests in their house to re-attire-kan themselves, or even the owner of the house right after they r done with the cooking thingy.

just about 3pm, ChungMeng and SaoInn came back from site; i was reading books for references and etc for the Wet Kitchen and Dry Kitchen part...then he told me, saying tht the client might appoint a kitchen cabinet specialist or something...so, better if i focus on the major spaces, esp the living area...if the client decided to let us design the kitchen part, only we do cuz its scheduled to handover somewher around Sept...shortly before Raya?? before i have my head turned back to the monitor, there he goes missing in action again...another site visit?? no idea~

so, from the whole Sea of Cabinets in my brain...have to leap 360 degrees to living area...scribbled some also...off i go around 630? coz i was a few mins late today...and btw, i met SaoInn this morning when i reach office...he was about to take something from his car, kindly reminded the HR dept manager about the staff ID card for the flash-the-door-and-open, efficiently, i received my card somewhere 11am.. :P thanks alot !!

p.s ooh...and tht poor little apple still stuck there, with her eclipse mints MIA in extreme speed!! ...wakakakaka

fyi # 02

2009-06-06T01:22:00.003+08:00

well...i know its friday now..

but im gonna tak about tuesday.. :P

odd huh?

fyi, today is the second day of my intern. but i still dont have access to the company premises..the -teet-teet- machine is keeping me out. so, i reach here early too...around 845am, shortly before Kak Noor. whoever who reads this post (or the previous) who found spelling error on your own name, correct me~ wakakak

as usual, i have no idea what to do. so, still reading non stop. thanks to JDW's super rich and well updated library, i can read to my max...so far, i think only read 0.5% of the overall book collection in their resource center. fyi, most of the books are not in the library..they are on the designer's table. currently, the trend in the office is more Kevin Mark Low's style...introduced by my senior ChungMeng. <-- he say he only small potato in the office... to be continued

thanks to Kak Noor who reminded me, i brought my own stila mug and spoon. changed my bag today cuz my monday-bag handle spoilt...so bloody embarassing. luckily i have my strap cuffed monday...hate low quality bags... cleverly brought my own mug to make coffee and tea, but i more cleverly forgot to bring my phone and my wallet. fyi, i didnt know until lunchtime where i was searching for my wallet to join Daphne to lunch...

today, i met Mr Azlan, the another studio head who was away for meeting on monday; Mr Khoo, the big boss who wears Crocs; Mr Arasu, the submission progress expert; and Mr Ceasar, the 3D guy downstairs. not to forget, i met the ID dept people too :- Amy, the skinny sporty girl who likes sport shoes; and the only guy taller than me in the whole company. I forgot his name though... :P will ask Daphne next monday...According to Amy, there's another girl name WeiRu in the ID dept.

anyway, ChungMeng explained the bungalow project that im assigned to in detail...the BP, section dwgs, site pics etc...and asked me to design the grating...fyi, its the drain cover sort of...so..sketch and sketch and sketch...alot of stupid thing come out la...until ChungMeng thought im designing jewelleries...he explained quite a lot of stuffs though...eg. workmanship is more expensive than material cost. :P

then...the client of the bungalow project is here to discuss about his future house la...currently constructing one...but have to decide on intricate things esp the finishes and fitting choices and options during the meeting session. Mr Marimuthu, SaoInn and ChungMeng was stuck there. so, i went lunch with Daphne and the ID dept people...along with Mr Ho. by the time we finish lunch also, the meeting havent end. fyi, client is always right. so, if they smoke during the meeting, u cannot say anything also. btw, Mr Khoo was there during the meeting also...

tbc

p.s damn tired