a promise i shouldnt break

it will be extremely short

coz im not in the mood to blog

i will be opening a new blog

dedicated to a person that i love, i care, and shed tears for

another promise that im going to keep

blog created

With Love

we do love you

i PROOOOOMMIISSEE that im going to blog this coming TUESDAY

--- > I PROMISE < ---

if i break it...no shopping on year end sale...

p.s i bet guys dont understand how suffering it is going to be

and some love in the air **

Guilt

have you ever got yourself disappointed with someone? something?

in a short day of prob 4 hours

i have disappointed 6 people that means the most to me

think back a lil...if the position changes

and you know that the someone that once disappointed you is of high potential

yet, its just another disappointment

feeling sad? its beyond

heartbroken? more likely

frustrated? at self why i cant help him/her to achieve better

and the disappointment, is not because its going to affect your reputation

but a feeling of helplessness, that you are going to lose another possible star

damn

i hate myself,

for disappointing so many people

it has reach a stage that, sorry is nothing comparable to

the disappointment is so huge that, its beyond repair

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people are stereotype
they'll find u when they r in deep shit
when there's something to share
they wont give a shit on you
instead, they make u look stupid and in deep shit

so
is it my fault?
being unreasonably late is definitely my fault
yet...look stupid?
i cant recall being deserved any fucking humiliation after what i have done
after what i have contributed

i dont really ask for a pay back or a repay
at least, you shouldnt make me feel like
all these time, when im contributing and doing all for nothing
is because i look stupid, and easily persuave-able

i trust you, i really want to treat you good
as a true friend...that is always there to share your problem
sometimes, when i think back
i might just be my self emo, thinking too much
well...it prooves that im wrong
either im easy and stupid 1, or you are a fucking dumbass with no sense of humiliation at all

frankly
i think that you are pathetic
after what you have done
yet...u dont know how deep u have hurted me deep in my heart
after the trusts that i have given out
asking for no repay while u r wasting even my slightest effort to try

are these reasons enough for me to hate you?
i think that it is more than enough

its true that...thats life
full of unfairness
well...apparently, it means that im so ignorable even when i statementing something to u