Devillish Me

FYI, our friend...Victor has a blog...

which i linked in my Elle box... *link*

and then...

i clicked on the Tarot reading thingy *link*

after i read his blog lar...of coz...

guess what i found?

The Devil ME~!

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsessions.

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. 

On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. 

This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn.

In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

It turns out that the Tarot thinks that i'm devillish...

it does sound crazy while i read it for the first time...

believe it or not? 

well...only those who r close enough with me will know

even myself oso dunno.. ><

well...just in time for this post

Who is more devillish?

I really hope that the devil in HIM...

comes in the 'real' devilish way...

the devillish grin..and mesmerising *gasps*

HOT devil in lust...XOXO

surreal fantasy Devil..in devillish smile

a little bit of devillish EMO?

ABSOLUTELY

not 'gagak' style~!!

p.s. Who's writing to the Devil now? 

Attach my name so that we submit in all...

more persuasive~

-_- really needa get rid of this...

10 Things You Cant Do With A Crushed Thumb

when i got home and tell my mom that i crushed my thumb

with my own hand  <-- means left hand slam the car door on my right thumb

my mom burst out immediately

'aiyo...why got such stoooopid ppl 1?'

'aiya...stomach ache ar...ahahahahhaha...'

'wakakkakaka....'

neighbour might think that she's watching Jim Carrey or Stephen Chow

by the way...she dont...

i hav a patch of bruise on my thumb

underneath the thumbnail...its really a big patch

i got freaked out and hurried off around 5pm..it was friday evening

and went to see our family doctor...that was the first time i go see doctor alone

with a thumbs up along my driving from Cheras to Kepong *swt*

dinner time it is...

my mom asked...

'oi...i tot your thumb hurts?'

'can eat ar?'

'can use chopsticks meh?'

'ahahahhaha...'

it is soo not funny lor~

after 2 days of doing nothing at home  <-- because of it

i came out with this blogpost

10 Things You Cant Do With a Crushed Thumb

1. U cant grab your mouse comfortably

2. U cant sms single handed

3. U cant type properly on they keyboard 

4. U cant scroll your Ipod

5. U cant sign your name propery

6. U cant hold a spatula and cook properly

7. U cant crush an ant that bites you in your left arm

8. U cant sleep with your thumb lying beside you

9. U cant wash your hair & massage your sculp 

10. U cant turn the TV on with the remote 

and this

10 Things You Can Do With a Crushed Thumb

1. Drive with thumb up 

2. Cook like a 5 yrs old way to hold a spatula

3. Eat something that tastes really awful but still make the cook happy

4. Raise up your hand throughout the day

5. 'Play' imaginary guitar

6. Wear your clothes like a 3 yrs old

7. Save some nail polish .. instead of 10, you can put only 9

8. Drill your thumbnail for the first time in your life

9. Constantly drop things.. chopsticks spoon etc

10. Pain in the arse..i mean the thumb

so..its not fun at all...

p.s it took me...2 1/2 hrs to finish this post~

shyt~!

Guilt

have you ever got yourself disappointed with someone? something?

in a short day of prob 4 hours

i have disappointed 6 people that means the most to me

think back a lil...if the position changes

and you know that the someone that once disappointed you is of high potential

yet, its just another disappointment

feeling sad? its beyond

heartbroken? more likely

frustrated? at self why i cant help him/her to achieve better

and the disappointment, is not because its going to affect your reputation

but a feeling of helplessness, that you are going to lose another possible star

damn

i hate myself,

for disappointing so many people

it has reach a stage that, sorry is nothing comparable to

the disappointment is so huge that, its beyond repair

+++

people are stereotype
they'll find u when they r in deep shit
when there's something to share
they wont give a shit on you
instead, they make u look stupid and in deep shit

so
is it my fault?
being unreasonably late is definitely my fault
yet...look stupid?
i cant recall being deserved any fucking humiliation after what i have done
after what i have contributed

i dont really ask for a pay back or a repay
at least, you shouldnt make me feel like
all these time, when im contributing and doing all for nothing
is because i look stupid, and easily persuave-able

i trust you, i really want to treat you good
as a true friend...that is always there to share your problem
sometimes, when i think back
i might just be my self emo, thinking too much
well...it prooves that im wrong
either im easy and stupid 1, or you are a fucking dumbass with no sense of humiliation at all

frankly
i think that you are pathetic
after what you have done
yet...u dont know how deep u have hurted me deep in my heart
after the trusts that i have given out
asking for no repay while u r wasting even my slightest effort to try

are these reasons enough for me to hate you?
i think that it is more than enough

its true that...thats life
full of unfairness
well...apparently, it means that im so ignorable even when i statementing something to u

i paid 11 tolls in 1 day

its 9th Sept today
which makes 090908
quite gimmick-ish

but its defeinitely not a gd day for me
guess wad happened?

1. slept late the night b4, woke up look like zombie
2. pimples...sienz
3. extremely sleepy
4. reach college @ 800
5. climb up 3rd floor...tired like hell
(with laptop+carrier, 1.5l water, model, pencil cases, markers)
6. then settle down, with no A/C yet
7. no Milo Kosong panas (Cafeteria closed)
8. then i realise i didnt bring my drawings tht i rendered whole day yesterday
(its the second interim crit today) so screwed without them
9. realised i didnt bring my hp either
(end up borrow phone frm Ms Baizura n call mom)
10. mom not free to bring my drawings for me fr home

thus...i have to rush back to kepong
and bring tht small little roll of paper here

end up paying 11 tolls in total
LDP to and from Cheras x4
Penchala Link from Cheras x1
Kerinchi Link to and from Cheras x2
East West Link 50cent toll x4

this has been one of the craziest day in my life
hope tht there's no more awaiting

to be? or not to be in paranoia ?

u know
when it gets to design studio
its rather complicated
and it's head-cracking
when u know that u have nothing in your head

so...here comes the to be, or not to be time
time to make choices

1. stare at your draft paper pad
2. start google-ing crazy stuffs like
---> 'this crazy shoes'
---> 'this crazy homes '
---> 'this crazy car crash'
3. facebook
4. msn and appear offline
5. chew on snacks + tea + coffee + ...
6. morning/afternoon/evening nap
7. stick to your mp3 player
8. watch or re-watch some movies / dramas?
9. blog
10. stare at your draft paper again



then...came across ruthz's blog and read this
what's your name's hidden meaning

What Tess Soh Bee Hian Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often ??, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.?? You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination <- thats exactly the thing i need the most RIGHT NOW~!. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

accurate? cool?
go n check it out~
i guess that i am indeed in paranoia now...no nightmares please~

p/s...im still staring at my design pad...tmr got morning class lor~!