12.22.2007

people...let us gather together and curse them

went to the pavilion with my Alice today
we didnt bring much stuffs
just our phones and purses
i put everything in my pockets while Alice has a mini purse to keep her phone safe

shopped at the MNG and looked around
queued for the JCo's Donuts as well

then...walk back to times square (coz we drove there and parked in Times Square)
will pass by the Starhill Gallery and Lot 10
it was crowded coz it was already 6pm
then...something fishy appeared

i didnt know anything coz i felt that there were too many people and i walked faster and faster
in fact, my pace is a lot more faster than most of my scondary friends (thanks to archi course)

then Alice called me to wait for her...then i started to walk slowly
the pedestrians are mostly chinese especially ladies and shoppers

then...these 3 INDONESIANS (2 f*Cked up bitch and 1 f*cker pimp)
they started to look both of us up and down
like we have already done something ...
with those wicked eyes
and Alice sensed something over it...they might be snatch thiefs

is that flashes of moments of 10 seconds...
1 of the bitches were walking next to her and try to cut off her pink MNG shopping bag and take her phone while the another bitch try to block her and let her walk slower

but Alice felt that something was wrong and shouted at the bitch beside her
then...the bitch with blade failed
within 5 second, she ran away and disappeared
the another bitch in front stopped walking and was trying to snatch her plastic bag

but i stood in front of her and stared at her
Alice yelled at the stood there bitch ' Hey~! would you just go away?'
people around was like watching a movie, would not give any help...
and the bitch was so f*cked up and she dare to stare back at us

wad the f*ck is going on?
you are the one f*cking around with people and now...
you are trying to dare us back?

i should have yelled at her...
YOU BITCH, JUST DIE AND FUCK YOUR WAY OFF WITH YOU FUCKER PIMP AND THE FUCKER THIEF...DONT BLOCK THE ROAD
followed up with A FEW slaps on her face <-- make this your instinct response
grab her hand and send her to the police

damn...
now...i have this 'pedestrian phobia' already
thanks to these BITCHES and PIMP
I now...will live with this phobia, till that day my grave is carved

so...people
let us curse these f*ckers up
and pray hard to God

may God punish those that violated law
may God punish those that snatches and thefts
may God bar them away, from the Holy passage back to Father's side
may God trade them away, for world peace
may God create holy personalities, lighten up those that dimmed, to offer a helping hand
may God forgive me for cursing these evil creatures

you bitches and pimps, just DIE

12.21.2007

J.Co

thanks to temptational thoughts from KIM YANG
i bought these donuts from J.Co
that he said that tastes like no other elses
and feels like candy-flosslogo
the one dozen of donuts i bought (after queue of 30+ mins) choc topping + cappucino filling
blueberries ( topping + filling )

green tea?
oreo topping
choc topping + capucino filling
white choc top + peanut butter filling
choco topping + peanuts



belgium white choc topping + walnuts
choc topping + choc flavoured cereals
after i bought these babies...i only left 85cents to go back home...geng?



12.10.2007

MSID 12 @ UiTM, Seri Iskandar

a long bus trip from UCSI foyer to Seri Iskandar (approx. 4 hrs) has exhausted most of us before we reach the Uni. Tech. Petronas.

Paid a visit there coz it was one of the winner of the Aga Khan Awards 2007 and its designed by Norman Fosters & Partners. <-- International Famous Firm for High Tech Buildings

the Cancellor Complex of UTP
left = Cancellor Hall....right = library (looks more like retail bookstore)

the Cancellor Hall @ UTP

corridor & the canopy @ UTP

labs and lecture studios underneath canopy @ UTP

the library @ UTP

we walked through their campus, and were so sad to say that they do not have architecture course after they have paid millions to Foster & Partners. think they have civil engineering...
and Norman Foster didn't get paid for designing their toilet i guess...

they gave us a brief introduction of this campus's design and show us some slides + lam
e jokes...fell asleep
after a tit bits and refreshment session, we continue to the UiTM, approx 10 mins from UTP
went to the APSDA last yr...and met martin's gang from KBU lar...kinda excited to re-meet these ppl
scared of their hostel condition since it was bad back at the APSDA event which is where we are going for the tiga belas
but it ended up quite okay...cleanliness OK...dusty? NOP...spooky? NOP...overall okay la...
but a bit frustrated because we need to buy water from their vending machine ( like those in front of Oldtown Kopitiam back to Cheras)
and NO HOT WATER !! all the cup noodles, maggi, nescafe, milo we brought there were simply useless
tot we could have escape from 'great' foods -- rice + chicken + ulams (marinated veggie) for 3 meals a day consecutive 3 days

stage seats + crowds

the stage that looks like a stage <--- i have to admit, the UiTM ppl did great job

after the montage presentation, we were waiting in front of the foyer but cant go back..
w/o proper reason ooh~! were waiting and feeding the mosquitoes there
went back to hostel around 11, refreshed and tot of coming out to their communal areas to blow...
interior and archi students ma...one day no blow feels like gonna die~! somemore no coffee leh...drastic hormones change
morning call was at 6...i tot got ghost leh~!
someone simply bang at the door like so freakin hard
and i tot some dumb heads bang their head on
we set our alarms to wake up at 6:30...darn...cant seep liao
breakfast...then to their Dewan Seri Iskander for opening ceremony...of course..bored la
ppl started to fish...and nodding their heads


first prize winner

first runner up

third prize (twin sharing)

then, we were sent to different places for the Ecorace lar...Rakit race lar...Charity work lar...Sketches Competition...tot it will rain but ended up freakin hot day
i went to the charity work painting group with janet n kayapau...coz i was the only one not assigned to anything

kg.Aji. . . where the Ecoraces will be

3 of us..bored coz there were 40 ppl painting, but only 5 rollers n 5 brushes
we sealed the windows with newspaper lor...but the others just paint it

then...went back to Kg. Aji for lunch..thats better than the lunches n dinners back at UiTM
UCSI rakit ppl (fanson, lawrence, eng, zackry, kahsing, gracia, wai choon)...u guys rock~!
guess wad? they were flipped into the river twice and they still made it to the end..though not the first lar
went back to UiTM around 4 but were standing in the shuttle bus for 10+ mins
then there comes the BBQ dinner...which is rice + 'roasted' chicken 1 pc + sambal + honey dew + syrup
there come the creative performance...the video is with me but..i dont have youtube
try type 'lost fireflies' at youtube..search...its freakin cool im telling u~!
coz i filmed it at the first seat pre-booked 5 months ago..wakakakakaka

this is the abstract dance performer from UiTM
u guys r so professional~!
there were 4 hosts..i tot i was watching some sort of musical awards
and the stage is so feakin cool~!


the next day...closing ceremony and of course...Prize giving session lar...
we were anticipating in a group...our heart almost beated in the same rhythm
was so scare that u might let our lecturers down coz sooooo many mishaps happened~!
the rakit race fell into water twice...creative performance were told disqualified coz they were considered by someone <-- dunno who not traditional

our baby lecturers..they were a lot more happier than we do~!
The prizes we got

1st prize - rakit creative design (were not expected)
1st prize - viewing tower by Joe & Kinyew (Joe Tan rocks)
3rd prize - viewing tower by Nick & Tau Wei
3rd prize - creative performance (u guys r simply fantastic!)
Ecoraces
1st prize - by Ron
3rd prize - by Chia Pau
3rd prize - by Chris Woo

at the end..the thing i misses the most is the moment that we cheered for the awards
and this cute kitty

12.02.2007

Rest in Peace, My Dear


My Son died today
i started to keep him last yr
somewhere around spring..
at that time, he was only 2 inches long...
a cute little boy...
he refused to eat at first because he was new in his new home
then...i fed him by hand to his mouth
slowly
he began to eat
then...
he grew bigger n bigger
eating around 1/2 pound of meat per day
still feeding him by hands at first but he approaches me after few months
after that...
we call him miow miow ( red tail CATfish )
whenever i approach his 4ft home
he goes up to the water surface and tickle my hand with his whiskers
sometimes
i pet him in the water too
today...
the 30th nov 2007
miow miow left me
may him stay in Peace and never become a fish in his afterlife
and i, Love you always

11.04.2007

when i see in your Eyes


well...
u knw that the Eye on Malaysia
is already there for ...
u know how long
went there juz now
late afternoon & early evening


a cool place...a cool spot...an attraction...scary though


there were dozens of tour busses around that spot
fetching and sending tourist all over both local & foreign



saw Japanese, Europeans, Koreans i guess...
whoever they are...not Malaysians
but there are bunches of Malaysians too...

small ppl (kids & students wearing track bottoms, some even in uniforms)
'not that crowded'
coz it have got worse when we were about to leave


reached there around 4:30
tot we need to queue (wakaka...behind 200 students)
almost freaked off
then...asked the guard there..
another queue line...




bought ticket rm45 (including my cute bro n sis, Wilber & Meg)
coz its rm15 per adult
but its kinda packed it will be
8 pax per cabin (the cabin is kinda small)

yet
it wasnt that crowded that time
took us 10 mins before our turn
luckily...
5 of us got into 1 cabin
all ours...lucky~





but the most freaked out thing is...
i think i have this Height-Phobia thing
u know?
scared of heights...
especially when we were hanging in the middle air
at the highest point...
almost fainted
(cant imagine...huh?)
thats why i never spend money to Genting
waste my $$ absolutely



whatever
try to not to vomit (haha)
and took some pics inside the cabin

it was raining...little bit here and there
yet...
its better than standing under hot sun...
agree?


took pics like...everywhere
with the Eye...the fountain(??)
the lake



saw a quite nice house in front of the Eye too
took some of the pics
and ...
hope i can have something like that someday in the future too...






p.s. hope can go another time...
to get cool night view...with all the lighting features...

11.02.2007

re-break

today
i went to this Mc-D somewhere nearby my house
i drove there

then...to meet these ppls from my primary 6th grade
afterall
we were colleagues for wad?
almost 300 days?

not all of them showed up
only about 1/2 of them?


thats not the main point


honestly
i changed a lot in college
obviously i talk more now
coz i seldom talk any during my primary time
almost none

turned a bit better during secondary
but still not talking that much
appear so stiff and strict
(do i still appear stiff now?)

for ppl who attended the gathering today
sorry for being so...scary <--- the best word i can think of
didnt really talked

guess wad
for the 6yrs in primary sch a.k.a sjkc desa jaya
i have never been in the same class with anyone for more than 1 yr
means i have diff classmates every year
i scored PTS when i was in grade 3
that makes me so a lot more apart from my existing classmates

thats why we dont have common topics except what actually happened during our study time together that 300 days because we were not even in the same class in grade 5
cool huh?

i'll try
coz im bad in socialising

i'll try
to talk more

i'll try
to get involved

i'll try

anyway
glad to meet u guys...

10.04.2007

im gonna take about tesstotoro


what u see in this picture?

a. green grass
b.grey mountain
c.white rays
d.blue sky


its not a test dude...just to ask

for me...i kinda got focussed to the white rays...
apart from the greens...

it kinda changes throughout years
when i was in secondary...i see the greens
u know...kinda like the urge to breakaway from the past..
to run freely on the ground
be different (yet failed)

after graduate from high school
it turns to the light rays
u know..hope...for a better future, kinda like breakthrough the past...
looking towards the future...

but then...when i was in foundation
it doesnt turn out well because by then...
i realised that im not as good as i thought
i cant draw...i cant speak...i cant get As...there are a lot of 'I Cant's
here comes the grey mountains

things started to happen
classroom politics...my worst subject
i dont really get along with the norm here
it goes differently...majority wins..

then...someone exposed everything...
i realised even more~
i wasnt as good as they say...
i knew why ppl stop talking to me
its kinda like...got struck by lightning in your head...
comes in a sudden

how am i suppose to get over it additional with assignments?
so...i have been silenced for quite a while...
having lunch alone
having a part time job
sitting alone among the whole group
talked to none...

kinda get used to it when the 2nd semester ended
during foundation
then the 3rd sem started...
wasnt doing well at the starting week
didnt really talked to sunny as well...(i was staying in the same room with her)
dont really like ppl ignore me...
but cant help
so...stay alone-ing
thats when greens appears in my mind


till the 1st sem degree when things get extreme
ppl start to leave the school
personal reason or whatever
stressed up...
thats when i see lights again
in an opposite way
disappointments...sorrow...

instead of see-ing light....hope-ing for is a more accurate term





till now...

so..what do u think about tesstotoro?

i dont really know much about totoro
simply thinks that its cute ...and cuddly

bibiba bombomba..
i wonder how nice it will be if life is that easy going...
a cat...appeared from no-where and help u in everything

thats totoro...
i want to be like totoro
see things so simple
enjoy helping people

but things goes the other way round
i want to break free
be some one big
visible to ppls surrounding besides a big fat tall gal that looks like a guy to other ppls

get what i mean?

9.14.2007

a new horizon...for me

we are currently doing our final project, which the previous tutorials has made me a feeling worser and worser throughout the day...

perhaps i should re-introduce my project..
its a gallery for our client, specifically a body art painter, a multi-talented artist from Czech*...
if i'm not mistaken...
but the gorgeous thing about him is that...he's one of the top student from the Beaux Arts Academy in Paris...
well...ppl who study history & culture 2 probably know what that means...
he designs patterns...and try his patterning in different mediums and techniques

oil on canvas, tapestry (cloth weaving), silk print, etching, woodcut, installation etc..
of course...body painting la...

then..its a continuous project...from the very 1st project throughout the semester till the final project...
we have researched based on our artist...and to fit in his/ her features in our designs...
meaning to say that whatever we have designed...its specifically meant for our individual artists only...in a very specific category...

these are some of his works...


sketch
Danse 1

Glass Sculpture
Light 1


Silk Screen Print
Pop Square 1


Tapestry
Voyage

for the body painting part...it turned out kinda unacceptable for me at the beginning coz its preconceived in me...
and the thing is that...the artist actually painted all of these women nude...naked...
which is at a higher level compared to the Asia regions' way of approach...
they normally paint on tight outfit in skin colour...
so...it takes time for me to understand it...

sometimes...his artworks goes kinda sexy and extreme...

Painting
Cherimoya

Painting
Raspberry

Painting
Yellow Passion Fruit

Painting
Strawberry

here's how the fun part goes...
we are assigned to interpret the artists works and to design a circulatory flow for the gallery after we have visited the galleries around the town

and the objective is..to have something not what they are having in the town
plain walls + nails + planes of art pieces hung up...

and ms. Diana 'suggested' us to browse through the net and books especially to get ideas on the design of our gallery...

i ended up searching clueless...grab simply anything i like...and try to apply the interesting elements into the gallery...after photocopying from books...prints from internet...

well...i kinda understand whats happened to me when mr.Zani kinda reminded me of myself...

he said :' i see something in you, but u ended up putting in everything and too afraid to make decisions.'

for more than 3 projects... i received the same comment " too much"

so...should i be happy now?
working on a simpler piece now...which is totally different from the very first moment designing the layout etc...

i dont know...
sometimes i feel like...there's nothing in my brain...
empty...
its different from empty..its just that...i have these images in me...
but i just cant get it aligned...and the whole design appeared in loose pieces...
get what i mean...

ppl are working on a straight line and develop into waves...
i have got the wave..but i spoilt it with waves of different wave lengths...
get what i mean..i just simpy dont know when and how to stop
pathetic huh?

p.s. tesstotoro feeling helpless

8.30.2007

i should have blogged this yesterday

well...
it was the 29th of Aug
we were having this birthday steamboat at gary's place
nearby college

then, i was responsible of the foods and stuffs la...
doris suggested the ice cream 'cake' thingy
kinda weird, coz celebrating with steamboat...
wahaha
anything...
as long as everybody's happy with it

everybody is here..jamie came purposely...
me, kimyang, jas, chris,jamie, eezhu, sunny, siewxia, nick, nigel, ernest, gary, andrew, doris, kayapau, a fai, boo, yew mun.

some didnt show up coz because of their studio work...

early in the morning, i went to gary's place with eezhu, to get rid of the tom yum soup...
little little conflict happened there where eezhu n me have diff opinion on the soup...
haha..
anyway, i made it my way and eezhu was helping up with the cutting chopping and boiling job
she actually thought we are cooking seafood tomyum and she wants to make it like...can be eaten straight way as what she had at home...

home sweet home...

then, went to the mamak to have my breakfast...with eezhu of course...

go to class lor...(actually ita a talk)
a bit tired coz the night before, i wasnt sleeping well to get prepared with the foods
then.. a briefing by ms. Baizura bout the MSID
ppl...get prepared with the creative performance huh...

autoCAD
new assignment...darn tired of assignments

around 4...
went leisure mall with jas eezhu and janet to buy some left out stuffs
drinks, mushrooms, chillies...cant really remember coz we had so many stuffs

reach gary's place around 5...
start working for perfection
repair the soup's taste...kinda okok with the 2nd version of the tomyum soup
but if i serve this out in the pot, they are all so dead
only me n eezhu can stand the spicy-ness i guess...
dare me?

around 6...pasar malam
went to get the 2nd time left out things
lemons, mushrooms (again), some diff kind of balls (for jas n sunny)
drank a pack of honey lime, ate some of boo's tokayaki
not that nice, but darn expensiv lorh~

reach gary's place around 7:30
jas n chris went to chris's friend's place...
then...we were waiting...
while sunny is playing tarot with everybody...
this ppls might blog them too
the result...wahaha
nick, doris, siewxia, alan, nigel, kayapau, boo...
wahaha...
then, jamie reached...with her dried mushrooms

the pot starts at 8++
ernest reached with doris...
strat the pot...
everybody is 'robbing' everybody's foods...
balls, noodles, vege?
haha
sunny have the proof of the famine i guess...
wahahaa

it feels kinda nice when u see everybody is sitting beside the short tables
with 3 pots, fighting for foods...wahaha
well...i wasnt so sure coz i dont really know everybody's tast and how's the stuffs i prepared
everybody was talkingto each other and teasing each other...
so...
i was runing in and out to do the refilling job...
haha...
everyone was starving lor...

then...chris and jas reached to prepare the drinks...
apple yogurt drink + lemon + sprite
kinda weird combination but it turned out to be a light one
suit the mood cooling down steamboat's heat..
haha

its kinda fun...actually

then...everybody start playing stupid teasing each others
till the candle is lit on pcs of fried ice-creams

sing of course...
when the 1st song ended, they sang the 2nd round...
i was wondering, whose birthday else coz jas didnt really told me bout that...
neither the others

"...to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to TESS, Happy Birthday to you..."

i was stunned, coz its like, kinda early for it...10th of Sept
blown out candles + cross handed ice cream...
kinda weird but the joy and merry is there...
thanks guys...
im really surprised

thanks for everything...

p.s. : tesstotor in verygood x100 mood

8.27.2007

a freaked out must blog day

today...the 28th Aug 07
must remember this day coz this is the day, that i met a dinosaur...
dude, its true, a female herbivorous dino from China... nearby my house...

figured out what happened?

ok...here's how the story start...
it was just 30 mins ago (currently 21:42)
i was given an order by Empress Dowager (my mom)
to fetch my sis out to this cake shop to buy her friend's birthday cake
(kids now are darn rich...dont u think so?)

then...went in lor...
bought lor..
leave lor...
start my engine...
search for my phone...(coz mom called to ask where i am)
then...i realised something...
guess wad it is?








MY PURSE IS GONE...as if MISSING...GONE!!








i was so freakin freaked off coz its a serious crime u know?

have to go to police station lodge a police report la...(IC in there)

cannot drive la...(license there)

cannot shopping la...(discount cardS there)

have to wait for a long time la...
(new IC, they might detain your passport
if they are suspecting that u r trying to sell your IC, which u lost it)

be broke for at least a month la...(every cent there)

heartbroken la...(a purse which i have been using it for 5 yrs)

can u imagine it...
no PURSE, no LIFE im telling u...

then...it raining out there...
not heavy, but DOWNPOUR...
i was worrying, heart beats 100x faster (having heart attack soon)
searching every inch on the floor, road, walkways, beneath car, carpark, cashier...
everywhere dude...

nearly cried out coz im am freakin scared that time...

walked fore and back that area for at least 10 times...
searching in the rain...
and the thing that angers the most is that...
i took my bath before i go out, and i even washed my hair...
and its downpour...meaning to say...i have to wash it AGAIN

then...i stand in the middle of the road...wondering..

if the ppl saw my wallet, will he/she give it back?
if he/she are not giving back, how about the documents?
if he/she throw it away, the documents?

how am i going to suffer for the following month...

what if the authorities think that im tryin to sell my IC?
what if i have to re-take the driving course, driving test etc?
what if...what if...what if...

these what if-s almost made me crazy and i nearly cried out ...
but it stopped...

because i met this dino from China
there is this food court thingy, in front of the bakery...
diff ppl, selling diff stuffs...
then...this auntie wave to me...
i almost cried out, then i walked towards her...
she spoke to me in chinese...
we had a short conversation and she said that she found a purse and its mine

walau...
i am so...stuffed
and dont know what to say man~!
thanks God...
thanks everybody...
especially the auntie
dino from China...
the reason i say that she's herbivorous is because...she's selling popiah...
so touched man~!

wanted to tapau (take away) some popiah from her but she say no need ...
speechless ady
can only repeat & repeat & repeat & repeat & repeat & repeat
thank you (of coz in mandarin la...)
till everyone in the food court staring me...
shaking auntie's hand so hard...
speechless dude...


p.s. ppl, be truthful la...
if u r going to take the money out of the purse...at least u send back the documents in mail or what ever la...
ok?
dinosaurs are extinct...but i saw 1 today...
love dinosaur...
love everybody...
love auntie...
love God...
love you...


totoro in freaked out mode/mood today

7.17.2007

spread your wings and fly

well...before i start 'flying'
think i shall give myself a brief introduction.

tess aka totoro aka tesstotoro
not sure why but it just matches. know who's totoro?)

studying in Interior Archi
(previously was Archi Tech but got freaked off by this subject called the Built Environment during foundation. further details? ask me..)

a jazz music freak
(the tune and the feel is just there...rock n punk ppl, not being offensive but i think its too much)

likes musicals
( Chicago, by Catherine-Zeta-Jones, Richard Gere & Renee Zellwenger was my first approach, and i fell in love with Big MAMA...watched it?)

personally, i think that my life is so terrible, that i have nothing to be proud of
thats a big issue...
attempting to change it, which i doubt so...

well, diff ppls have diff things in diff living conditions
my relations with all the relatives are not that good
(bad actually, i dont even know what their full names are)

the only thing we have in common, is achievements (which i dont have 1)

guess what?
i have this aunt, which she asked me where am i studying everytime we meet...
(which is only 4 letters - UCSI)
for the consecutive 6 times in 3 months...
(get what i mean?)

i hated this kinda feeling very much

i admire these kids have parents that nags them, worrying them on their studies and results...
which my parents did not attempted once for the last 17yrs (18 soon)

at least i wont feel that guilty when someone is always there nagging at your for what u deserve..
whenever result releases, i feel more guilty instead of sadness and sorrow...

during the secondary time, i used to have these 'friends' that compares all of our results...
well...i didnt take it that seriously last time coz i managed to maintain the standard there...
not bad compared to others, but its still not excellent...
its the guilti-nesses that slices my heart...

ok..the first step of voyage is established...


went to this MATRADE INTERIORS EXHIBITION when everybody was in PAM UIAM Camp...
the suppliers...their attitude is not zero, but below...
me and jas, we went there early and this organizer gave us the TRADE VISITORS tags...
then...we went in and scout around for these fascinating stuffs..

yet..these ppls selling some sort of things like wallpaper/ sheet stuffs
the company name is S*BU...
me and jas went to the booth, and was trying to ask them bout this new technology stuffs
there were 2 of the sales representatives there, one male n one female

then...

i stepped forward and asked them for the infos of the products..
think that maybe in the future, we might need it when doing freelence or whatever..
an exposure is sufficient...right?

these ppls were just so rude, and turned their backs on us... its so bloody obvious and he just walked away..
i was so pissed off, and walked away...

when i am freelancing somewhere in the future, i will never, ever use even one inch of their products...God damm*t (that's what i was thinkin)

but the students works part relieves a part of the angerness...and the fabric art, by this company name PAS*ERA, is simply fascinating...



respective colleges like...MIA, UCSI, ALIF, KBU, LUCT etc...
they have all of their students works there...some of them are simply crazy


ladies, want a piece of that delicious lips? i'm sure guys do..


tribal + gothic art-chitecture


Lets call that a day..shall we?
i actually arranged all of these yesterday night but it ended up un-posted because of the stupid streamyx connection...


-tesstotoro- in bad mood