when i see in your Eyes

well...
u knw that the Eye on Malaysia
is already there for ...
u know how long
went there juz now
late afternoon & early evening


a cool place...a cool spot...an attraction...scary though


there were dozens of tour busses around that spot
fetching and sending tourist all over both local & foreign



saw Japanese, Europeans, Koreans i guess...
whoever they are...not Malaysians
but there are bunches of Malaysians too...

small ppl (kids & students wearing track bottoms, some even in uniforms)
'not that crowded'
coz it have got worse when we were about to leave


reached there around 4:30
tot we need to queue (wakaka...behind 200 students)
almost freaked off
then...asked the guard there..
another queue line...




bought ticket rm45 (including my cute bro n sis, Wilber & Meg)
coz its rm15 per adult
but its kinda packed it will be
8 pax per cabin (the cabin is kinda small)

yet
it wasnt that crowded that time
took us 10 mins before our turn
luckily...
5 of us got into 1 cabin
all ours...lucky~





but the most freaked out thing is...
i think i have this Height-Phobia thing
u know?
scared of heights...
especially when we were hanging in the middle air
at the highest point...
almost fainted
(cant imagine...huh?)
thats why i never spend money to Genting
waste my $$ absolutely



whatever
try to not to vomit (haha)
and took some pics inside the cabin

it was raining...little bit here and there
yet...
its better than standing under hot sun...
agree?


took pics like...everywhere
with the Eye...the fountain(??)
the lake



saw a quite nice house in front of the Eye too
took some of the pics
and ...
hope i can have something like that someday in the future too...






p.s. hope can go another time...
to get cool night view...with all the lighting features...

re-break

today
i went to this Mc-D somewhere nearby my house
i drove there

then...to meet these ppls from my primary 6th grade
afterall
we were colleagues for wad?
almost 300 days?

not all of them showed up
only about 1/2 of them?


thats not the main point


honestly
i changed a lot in college
obviously i talk more now
coz i seldom talk any during my primary time
almost none

turned a bit better during secondary
but still not talking that much
appear so stiff and strict
(do i still appear stiff now?)

for ppl who attended the gathering today
sorry for being so...scary <--- the best word i can think of
didnt really talked

guess wad
for the 6yrs in primary sch a.k.a sjkc desa jaya
i have never been in the same class with anyone for more than 1 yr
means i have diff classmates every year
i scored PTS when i was in grade 3
that makes me so a lot more apart from my existing classmates

thats why we dont have common topics except what actually happened during our study time together that 300 days because we were not even in the same class in grade 5
cool huh?

i'll try
coz im bad in socialising

i'll try
to talk more

i'll try
to get involved

i'll try

anyway
glad to meet u guys...

im gonna take about tesstotoro

what u see in this picture?

a. green grass
b.grey mountain
c.white rays
d.blue sky


its not a test dude...just to ask

for me...i kinda got focussed to the white rays...
apart from the greens...

it kinda changes throughout years
when i was in secondary...i see the greens
u know...kinda like the urge to breakaway from the past..
to run freely on the ground
be different (yet failed)

after graduate from high school
it turns to the light rays
u know..hope...for a better future, kinda like breakthrough the past...
looking towards the future...

but then...when i was in foundation
it doesnt turn out well because by then...
i realised that im not as good as i thought
i cant draw...i cant speak...i cant get As...there are a lot of 'I Cant's
here comes the grey mountains

things started to happen
classroom politics...my worst subject
i dont really get along with the norm here
it goes differently...majority wins..

then...someone exposed everything...
i realised even more~
i wasnt as good as they say...
i knew why ppl stop talking to me
its kinda like...got struck by lightning in your head...
comes in a sudden

how am i suppose to get over it additional with assignments?
so...i have been silenced for quite a while...
having lunch alone
having a part time job
sitting alone among the whole group
talked to none...

kinda get used to it when the 2nd semester ended
during foundation
then the 3rd sem started...
wasnt doing well at the starting week
didnt really talked to sunny as well...(i was staying in the same room with her)
dont really like ppl ignore me...
but cant help
so...stay alone-ing
thats when greens appears in my mind


till the 1st sem degree when things get extreme
ppl start to leave the school
personal reason or whatever
stressed up...
thats when i see lights again
in an opposite way
disappointments...sorrow...

instead of see-ing light....hope-ing for is a more accurate term





till now...

so..what do u think about tesstotoro?

i dont really know much about totoro
simply thinks that its cute ...and cuddly

bibiba bombomba..
i wonder how nice it will be if life is that easy going...
a cat...appeared from no-where and help u in everything

thats totoro...
i want to be like totoro
see things so simple
enjoy helping people

but things goes the other way round
i want to break free
be some one big
visible to ppls surrounding besides a big fat tall gal that looks like a guy to other ppls

get what i mean?

a new horizon...for me

we are currently doing our final project, which the previous tutorials has made me a feeling worser and worser throughout the day...

perhaps i should re-introduce my project..
its a gallery for our client, specifically a body art painter, a multi-talented artist from Czech*...
if i'm not mistaken...
but the gorgeous thing about him is that...he's one of the top student from the Beaux Arts Academy in Paris...
well...ppl who study history & culture 2 probably know what that means...
he designs patterns...and try his patterning in different mediums and techniques

oil on canvas, tapestry (cloth weaving), silk print, etching, woodcut, installation etc..
of course...body painting la...

then..its a continuous project...from the very 1st project throughout the semester till the final project...
we have researched based on our artist...and to fit in his/ her features in our designs...
meaning to say that whatever we have designed...its specifically meant for our individual artists only...in a very specific category...

these are some of his works...

sketch
Danse 1

Glass Sculpture

Light 1


Silk Screen Print
Pop Square 1


Tapestry
Voyage

for the body painting part...it turned out kinda unacceptable for me at the beginning coz its preconceived in me...
and the thing is that...the artist actually painted all of these women nude...naked...
which is at a higher level compared to the Asia regions' way of approach...
they normally paint on tight outfit in skin colour...
so...it takes time for me to understand it...

sometimes...his artworks goes kinda sexy and extreme...

Painting
Cherimoya

Painting
Raspberry

Painting
Yellow Passion Fruit

Painting
Strawberry

here's how the fun part goes...
we are assigned to interpret the artists works and to design a circulatory flow for the gallery after we have visited the galleries around the town

and the objective is..to have something not what they are having in the town
plain walls + nails + planes of art pieces hung up...

and ms. Diana 'suggested' us to browse through the net and books especially to get ideas on the design of our gallery...

i ended up searching clueless...grab simply anything i like...and try to apply the interesting elements into the gallery...after photocopying from books...prints from internet...

well...i kinda understand whats happened to me when mr.Zani kinda reminded me of myself...

he said :' i see something in you, but u ended up putting in everything and too afraid to make decisions.'

for more than 3 projects... i received the same comment " too much"

so...should i be happy now?
working on a simpler piece now...which is totally different from the very first moment designing the layout etc...

i dont know...
sometimes i feel like...there's nothing in my brain...
empty...
its different from empty..its just that...i have these images in me...
but i just cant get it aligned...and the whole design appeared in loose pieces...
get what i mean...

ppl are working on a straight line and develop into waves...
i have got the wave..but i spoilt it with waves of different wave lengths...
get what i mean..i just simpy dont know when and how to stop
pathetic huh?

p.s. tesstotoro feeling helpless

i should have blogged this yesterday

well...
it was the 29th of Aug
we were having this birthday steamboat at gary's place
nearby college

then, i was responsible of the foods and stuffs la...
doris suggested the ice cream 'cake' thingy
kinda weird, coz celebrating with steamboat...
wahaha
anything...
as long as everybody's happy with it

everybody is here..jamie came purposely...
me, kimyang, jas, chris,jamie, eezhu, sunny, siewxia, nick, nigel, ernest, gary, andrew, doris, kayapau, a fai, boo, yew mun.

some didnt show up coz because of their studio work...

early in the morning, i went to gary's place with eezhu, to get rid of the tom yum soup...
little little conflict happened there where eezhu n me have diff opinion on the soup...
haha..
anyway, i made it my way and eezhu was helping up with the cutting chopping and boiling job
she actually thought we are cooking seafood tomyum and she wants to make it like...can be eaten straight way as what she had at home...

home sweet home...

then, went to the mamak to have my breakfast...with eezhu of course...

go to class lor...(actually ita a talk)
a bit tired coz the night before, i wasnt sleeping well to get prepared with the foods
then.. a briefing by ms. Baizura bout the MSID
ppl...get prepared with the creative performance huh...

autoCAD
new assignment...darn tired of assignments

around 4...
went leisure mall with jas eezhu and janet to buy some left out stuffs
drinks, mushrooms, chillies...cant really remember coz we had so many stuffs

reach gary's place around 5...
start working for perfection
repair the soup's taste...kinda okok with the 2nd version of the tomyum soup
but if i serve this out in the pot, they are all so dead
only me n eezhu can stand the spicy-ness i guess...
dare me?

around 6...pasar malam
went to get the 2nd time left out things
lemons, mushrooms (again), some diff kind of balls (for jas n sunny)
drank a pack of honey lime, ate some of boo's tokayaki
not that nice, but darn expensiv lorh~

reach gary's place around 7:30
jas n chris went to chris's friend's place...
then...we were waiting...
while sunny is playing tarot with everybody...
this ppls might blog them too
the result...wahaha
nick, doris, siewxia, alan, nigel, kayapau, boo...
wahaha...
then, jamie reached...with her dried mushrooms

the pot starts at 8++
ernest reached with doris...
strat the pot...
everybody is 'robbing' everybody's foods...
balls, noodles, vege?
haha
sunny have the proof of the famine i guess...
wahahaa

it feels kinda nice when u see everybody is sitting beside the short tables
with 3 pots, fighting for foods...wahaha
well...i wasnt so sure coz i dont really know everybody's tast and how's the stuffs i prepared
everybody was talkingto each other and teasing each other...
so...
i was runing in and out to do the refilling job...
haha...
everyone was starving lor...

then...chris and jas reached to prepare the drinks...
apple yogurt drink + lemon + sprite
kinda weird combination but it turned out to be a light one
suit the mood cooling down steamboat's heat..
haha

its kinda fun...actually

then...everybody start playing stupid teasing each others
till the candle is lit on pcs of fried ice-creams

sing of course...
when the 1st song ended, they sang the 2nd round...
i was wondering, whose birthday else coz jas didnt really told me bout that...
neither the others

"...to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to TESS, Happy Birthday to you..."

i was stunned, coz its like, kinda early for it...10th of Sept
blown out candles + cross handed ice cream...
kinda weird but the joy and merry is there...
thanks guys...
im really surprised

thanks for everything...

p.s. : tesstotor in verygood x100 mood