Its not the Eve, anymore

Christmas, usually will be spent at home. With my TV, Mom, Dad, Meg & Will; probably alone if Eng's wedding did not turn up. Lifestyle in KL, pretty much attached to various shopping malls and arcades of bars, lounge and restaurants. The first few experience is rather fun, but it gets dull after maybe 4 or 5 times.

New Year, will be of higher chance to couch potato at home as well. The traffic, the crowd, the long wait for our food. Call me self-centered but I'll go crazy if my food is stuck somewhere in the oven, burn into charcoal and the waitress claim that its the crowd. Afterall, food they serve in eventful days, normally suck to the max. Of course, 'because of the crowd'. Dad, normally have plans with his friends; same thing goes with mom. In fact, she went Pangkor with her colleagues this morning, for the coming 4 days. As for Meg, she had plan for Christmas; New Year will be stuck at home with me. And, Im stuck here working [pssst.]

For the past week, or maybe more... I've heard people talking about New Year resolution- like what are you going to do for the coming 2010. Looking at the future, is sort of, not what I normally does. I don't like things to be planned out on a cartograph pie chart or something; yet, they had to be somehow planned too. Of course, random stuffs comes out all the time and I like my life how it is now. A 3 months deal, 6 month or a year thing is more time manipulated. I prefer stuffs which works in stages - performance wise.

The one thing that I'll repeat every year is that, recall what I did for the past 365 days. College has been occupying my life since 2006 - and it is time. New people, current relationship, craps, politics, competitions, hope, and stuffs. Everyday stuffs, sentimental stuffs, crazy stuffs. Pretty much everything. Things that Im proud of, Im glad of, Im happy about, Im sad recalling, Im blushing thinking about, Im mad of, Im terrified about. 2009, I would say is heavily affected by 2008. It was a year I consider wasted. Cant get enough of the mourning, you can say whatever shit you want.. Tell me about sudden lost of love.

2008, was a year to remember.
2009, was a year mourning.
2010, will be a year to recover.

Happy 2010 everybody.

tesstotoro & vampire

If I dont blog this, I'll probably die of ... I dont know what it is. Anyway, people have cravings. Right? A mug of perfectly brewed coffee, vintage wine, fine dark chocolate, freshly plucked strawberries, sunrise, fresh air, cigarettes [famous among archi students], even a sizzling hot pot of bahkutteh. [okay. thats a little too far.]

So, a couple of months ago, I was google-ing. Basically on random stuffs that pops-up to my mind. A song I heard from the radio which I do not know its title; an actor I saw the movie but have no idea who his or her name is. Anything you name it. Soon after I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button - I went googling. Old movies that Brad Pitt was acting in. Somehow, I have this soft spot for vampire-related movies. As old as Dracula, to the Underworld 3. [fyi, the older the better. Maybe its because of the classical setting.]

Call this crazy, but I once waited for HBO's showtime in the midnight [around 3am?] in my relative's house. My home, do not subscribe to HBO. So, have to lah. ^^ Such a pain in the a$$ for my dad that time. He knew I love to watch movies.

Anyway, back to this vampire thingy. As I was browsing, I read this - Interview With The Vampire: The Vampire Chronicles. Brad Pitt starred, with Tom Cruise. Call that vintage. It caught my eye because I have never seen this movie in Malaysia's HBO channel. [fyi, Its banned here] The movie is made from Anne Rice's novel series - The Vampire Chronicles. Somehow, I managed to source this movie from a friend's house, and borrowed. Not sure where she bought the DVD. It doesnt look appetising at the first glance - something went wrong with the poster. It looked more like a horror movie. But it's more to a sad, sinful vampire romance. You are absolutely right, I'm so feeling don't want to return it now. :'(

To enhance the vampire-nesses of the movie, I watched it in the midnight. ^^ Sadly, my sis went to a camp, only will be coming back on the coming Tuesday. Will watch it again for the 100th time? LOL ... Brad Pitt have this masculine face and jaw line, which somehow it softens when you see in his velvety eyes. He plays a vampire in this movie, with a human heart. See the irony? He is passionate, loving, strong but emotionally fragile at the same time.

What surprises me is Tom Cruise. Call me a bias. The face of Ethan Hunt pops up whenever I think of Tom Cruise. It sort of imprinted his image as the multi-talented super spy agent. I have always liked action packed movies, but more towards Daniel Craig's 007 and Bruce Willis' type. He just looked so.. fragile to me.

Anyway, he stars in this particular vampire movie as well. Lestat, is the character's name. He should have carried this line along his career and make it his icon, like how Johnny Depp did with Jack Sparrow. The bold, enthusiastic, defiant arictocrat vampire... I've gotta tell you, I'm really impressed.

It feels like you are watching a piece of art, how he manipulate the minor details in the emotions and gestures. Its classic! With those satin smooth blond curls, translucent sea blue eyes, alabaster skin over the slender fingers with glass like nails holding a glass of wine, how could you resist him? And, the killing French accent.

Okay.. and Surprise no.3, would be Kirsten Dunst.

Yeah, the Spiderman girl. Remember? She plays the little vampire in the movie, 'daughter' of Lestat & Louis - Claudia. She's probably the only girl spent time romantically in a movie with BOTH Cruise & Pitt at the same time. Jealous? Cry lah~ LOL

and the Ultimate Surprise!! Antonio Banderas is in the movie too!! Let the picture tell you how elegantly dangerous is he in the movie. ^^

No words can describe this.

P.S : Kill me bah!!!

[Note: All pictures sourced from Google Image Search]

Worried : dedicated to Meg

To be frank. I'm Worried

I am worried that you met someone new.

I am worried that you met someone I don't know.

I am worried that you met someone that might hurt you.

I am worried that you met someone who doesn't deserve your attention.

I am worried that you met someone that makes relationship casual and disposable.

It worries me because I dont know how to teach you.

It worries me because I dont know how he'll influence you.

It worries me because I dont know how it will affect mom n dad.

It worries me because I dont know what is your perception of a relationship.

It worries me because I dont know whether you know that Im worried.

I feel like asking you every single details of your life. Sometimes, I cant bear it when you treat us like dirt, or disposable toilet roll... We love you. We have always wanted what's best for you. But, When you turn your back on us and we felt that friends are more important than your family, it worries me even more. For me, family plays a big part of a person's life. They are who you are. When everything fails, thats the only place you can lie down in peace and sleep like a baby.

Call me a tyrant. I have always wanted what's best for you.

You are what that's left for me.

Overprotective, It's my job to keep you safe.

I wouldn't want anyone or anything to hurt you.

I will support you, on every single decisions you make, as long as I'm convinced that you will be safe.

You are too precious, too valuable, too dear to be given to a person, that I dont even know who, what, how he is.

Just promise me that you'll tell when shit happens.

Keep yourself safe from anything and everything.

I Love You and I Always Do.

Wish you all the best with your new dude.

P.S : Don't break my heart.